September 30, 2004 @ 9.01am
testing my patience
Wah lau eh. God must really be testing my patience this morning.Stupid taxi driver. Don't know where's Ang Mo Kio Street 62, open your mouth and ask lahz. Your mouth is stuffed with gold that you can't ask? *grrr* Luckily I woke up just in time to see him miss the 2 turns completely, turning to the wrong direction. So he just turned back. Whoa...if I didn't wake up on time, God knows where he could have taken me to.
*waves fist* And he didn't even charge me cheaper!!! *grrrr* SMACK YER FACE!!!
And I shall conclude that now I hate 2 types of taxi drivers. Firstly, the kind who like to argue with you even though they are ridiculously and obviously wrong. Secondly, the kind who think they know it all and don't even open their mouth to double-check.
The former...once, there was this taxi driver who argued with me whether my block was in avenue 5 or street 12. He kept arguing it was street 12 although I tried correcting him. Got so fed up I refused to argue further. What the hell! I live there for 19 years and I don't even know where my block is situated at? You gotta be kidding...
September 29, 2004 @ 1.43pm
taking flight
I'm planning to get my own domain and webspace soon. Used for hosting fanlistings and possibly the JCG photo album. And if I get a little more ambitious, I might try creating the JCG website. Currently one of the members has opened a yahoo photos account to host the photos but the space is running out soon and there's not even a considerable amount of photos in there.As to whether I'll leave trilight, at the moment I'll say no. Yea...I know I seem to be taking flight real fast. I've hardly parked myself here for long and I'm leaving already. That doesn't feel and sound right.
Oh well...here goes the hunt for cheap and reliable webhosting companies/plans. Recommend please? Anyone?
And...today is lingy-ling's birthday. Head over here to wish her a happy birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! O tanjoubi omedetou!!!
September 28, 2004 @ 1.11am
another day
Wahahahaha...right now I think I'm addicted to Lene Marlin's "Another Day" and "Disguise". Thanks to Nad who lent me her 2 Lene Marlin cds. I listened to the "Another Day" cd like non-stop at work.I think I might make my next layout one that features Lene Marlin. Maybe...
Love the way the lyrics go for her songs. A little bit on the sad side but not fairytale-like. Very real. Like talking about everyday things that can happen to anybody. Yupz, I love songs with realistic lyrics.
Here's one with what I call realistic lyrics. I think it's about someone who committed suicide.
"Story" by Lene Marlin
I heard about your story from a friend
To let go and make an end, that's what you did
You left some words saying now it would be good
You knew they'd cry, but you hoped they understood
Things you've had to face, what you have seen
To make it through each day, you tried,
Without the tears
They tried to help, but they didn't see you crawl
They knew you fought, but they never
Thought you'd fall
They never thought you'd fall.
Tell them please, how could they know
Hurts inside, no scars to show
You played the lead, and never once you failed
And the place from where you watch us now
Hope you've found your peace somehow,
Peace somehow
I heard about your story through the years
Know 'bout all your hurt and fears
I won't forget
I wrote a song that I wish for you to hear
It's about yourself and the life you couldn't bear
Tell them please, how could they know
Hurts inside, no scars to show
You played the lead, and never once you failed
And the place from where you watch us now
Hope you've found your peace somehow,
Peace somehow
I wanna remember all there's about you,
And I know there's so much
I see all the faces, the tears and embraces
Wish you could be here to see it too
September 27, 2004 @ 12.17am
euphoria
The weekend is always too short!Thursday...watched "The Terminal" with Jo and Nad at PS after work. The movie was enjoyable. Never expected it to have quite a bit of humour. You guys should go watch it.
After the movie, we had late dinner at Pizza Hut. Yummyyyyyyyyy~~~
Saturday...met up with Ling and Xiu Wei. Just walked around the malls while Ling looked for a nice pair of shoes. We took some neoprints too. Been quite some time since I took neoprints.
Sunday...Ling invited Xiu Wei and I to her house for lunch. Had a filling lunch...steamboat.
Had dinner with family at Mushroom Pot in Orchard Point. Steamboat again...but this place specialises in mushrooms, thus the name of the restaurant. Yes Ling, a good recommendation for you. There's one at Stadium too. That one's much bigger.
Before dinner, we went down to Heeren. Sis wanted to redeem tickets for the Tiger Beer Euphoria '04 concert at the Padang on 9 October. Heh...just coz Shin is performing. Well, but the line up of artistes aren't that bad. Besides Shin, there's Lena Park, Shinhwa, Michael Learns To Rock etc... Desmond's father managed to get this whole bag of Tiger Beer bottlecaps coz he works at Singapore Country Club. We managed to redeem a total of 18 tickets!!! So yea...9x24 bottlecaps...since each set of 24 bottlecaps can redeem 2 tickets. Go do the math.
Oh...and I got a new watch. Been eyeing the Fossil watch for quite some time. The one where the dial changes picture. I do feel a little guilty that Mum paid for it. I think I'll return her the money instead when I get my next pay.
September 23, 2004 @ 1.00pm
the best dream yet
They said dreams are actually a reflection of your subconcious mind?Then this has gotta be the best dream yet. Although it lasted only for about an hour, I really appreciated it.
Coz in it, you came up to me and said you were sorry. You finally understood how I felt and you didn't want me to continue feeling rotten about myself and everyone else.
And for once in a long time, I finally felt happy around you guys.
Then, I had to wake up and bounce back into reality. The one where you refused to even actually find out what happened. Now you know why I love sleeping so much. Coz then I can escape reality for awhile.
No, I did not force myself to dream up stuff just coz I like you. Coz it really happened just like that. Perhaps at the far end of my mind, I'm hoping you would talk to me like you did before.
September 23, 2004 @ 8.40am
focus
It's kinda fast...Thursday already. Officially left with 2 weeks of SIP. Big countdown begins. Haha...So...Monday, I met up with Nad for dinner. Thought she might need a little company since she wasn't too happy about certain things. We were back at Coffee Club. Haha...Kid aka the waiter whom we disturbed wasn't around.
These days, I'm not sure why but maybe I'm tired, I can't really focus on things. Especially when it's a few things at the same time. I just kinda space out after a while or my brain just connects too slowly.
With that came the embarassing situation. Coz I reached Coffee Club earlier so Nad said I go get a seat first. Upon getting seated, the waiter/manager asked "Are you joining us for dinner?" I was thinking "WHAT???!!!" I was confused coz if you took that question literally, it would mean that we were going to have dinner with the waiter?! He had to ask that like 5 times before my brain finally connected and I answered "yes". The question was whether we were having dinner or just having dessert. And the us meant Coffee Club. Hahaha...but maybe he should have rephrased his question so my brain might have connected a little faster.
Tuesday, weather wasn't good. Rain. Took a cab home. I was tired anyway.
Yesterday, more work coming in. Sometimes I think I work too slowly. Anyway, the problem of focusing came back again. When my colleague came with the work and was explaining to me all the stuff, after the first few screens I kinda spaced out. The whole time I was going "ya...ok". But in actual fact, my brain wasn't even thinking and registering at all. Dangerous.
When I was leaving office, my mind was on work and how I might be working too slowly. I was trying to concentrate on watching out for cars and talking to Sis on the phone as well. Just had trouble focussing on everything at the same time. Dangerous again. I could have been hit by a vehicle.
Then at night, I was busy sms-ing Ling and Nad. Sis and Dad were trying to tell me things at the same time. I was also trying to listen to the news on tv. Getting a little pissed off with Sis coz she was just blatantly ignoring my Mum's yells for her to go bathe. Oh yea...and irritated at the fact that she's got a sorethroat but instead of resting her throat, she wants to talk so loudly.
Finally I got so fed up, I just switched off the tv. Less noise. Sis and Dad went quiet for a moment at my sudden outburst. And I explained that I had only one brain and 2 ears. So can I just focus on one thing at a time?
I'm so glad Colin and Christie didn't win The Amazing Race. They are an annoying pair. I think the game is sometimes based on luck and making the right choices at the right time.
September 20, 2004 @ 12.52pm
sugoi ne
Updates...Saturday, met up with Xiu Wei to go shopping. Heeren...Far East...Bugis.
Woohoo! She likes Maroon 5's "This Love" as well. Yea...and Singapore Idol contestant, Benjamin Eio sang that song. However, I think he was trying too hard to sound like Maroon 5's lead singer.
Talking about Maroon 5, changed my layout a little. And there's Maroon 5's "She Will Be Loved". Love that song as well.
Yesterday, went to Waseda High school for their annual fun fair. It was a JCg activity but Sis and I went by ourselves. Per and Desmond came along too. Something like TP's CCN day except it's more fun since there are more games. Caught 2 yo-yos...that was the maximum number you could catch.
Sidetrack a little...actually I kinda thought our class could do the yo-yo game for CCN day in year 2 coz the game's really fun. The yo-yos I'm talking about are actually small balloons filled with a little water. Attached to it is this long rubber band. So you fill this pool of water and put all those balloons in. The game goes like this...you get a hook. Attached to it is tissue paper. You hold the tissue paper and try to get the hook to hook a yo-yo. There's technique to it coz the minute the tissue paper gets wet, it can't hold the weight of the yo-yo. So the tissue breaks from the hook and...no yo-yo for you. Anyway, everyone was really busy in year 2...and...oh well...
Then, there was this Where's Wally game. You get this game sheet. You are given a clue. Using the clue, you gotta find the correct place where Wally's waiting. He will in turn tell you another clue and you gotta find the next place. There were 5 places to find in 15 minutes. Haha...Per and I were like running here and there.
Lots more other fun games. Food and performances.
September 17, 2004 @ 12.59pm
wishes
Today is your birthday. I struggled within myself of whether to even bother or not. After what happened, you and I will never be that close again. You never even apologised to me. To me, apologising would mean that you acknowledged what you did was not quite right and you realise it. Or at least bring up whatever you were unhappy about.It made me think back of my birthday this year. The disappointment I faced. This wave of jealousy comes over me. Coz I know you'll be surrounded by them today.
But yet, I felt it's wrong. Coz these are 2 different issues. How can I condemn you for everything? You still have your good points. And if I wanted to call myself a Christian, shouldn't I be more forgiving? It's like practising what you preach.
So I messaged you to wish you. And I really meant it.
September 16, 2004 @ 12.25am
ice box
It's like winter in the office everyday. Even my jacket isn't enough sometimes to keep me warm. Soon I might look like this...
Oh yes...wrapped up in a blanket, reaching out for the hot water. *lol* Yea yea...I'm no artist so my drawing isn't great...
If you wanna know what boredom does to you, this is it. This fella from my department *no idea what his name is* often goes through the door to the next department. I suppose either he's going to the pantry or toilet at the other end. Anyway, today when he passed by my cubicle to get to the door. I heard him go "sssshhhhiiiu sssshhhhhhiiiiiuuuuuuuu". By the time I turned round to see what was going on, he already passed by my cubicle. But I did catch him waving his rolled up paper. I guess he was sword-fighting with the air. *rofl*
Had a wonderful dinner with Nad. Met up at Orchard. Walked round the fair at Taka's basement. All the mooncakes since Mooncake/Lantern festival is coming soon. Finally ended up having dinner at Coffee Club. Nad decided to test whether the waiters would ask if we're of legal age by ordering Tiramisu Latte. We don't exactly look 18 and above...especially me...although we are already 19.
After the waiter took our orders without asking, we were talking about it. Said things too soon coz the waiter turned back and asked whether Nad was having Tiramisu cake or latte. She said latte and the waiter kinda insisted she pointed to the cake on the menu. Which was so not true. Oh well, maybe he had cake in mind. And he did ask if we were of legal age.
And then, Nad wanted to know his name. Haha...so there...when she asked for serviettes, I took a quick glance at his badge. It read "Kid". She didn't stop there. Now, she wanted to know how old he is. Finally controlled our laughter and she asked. Ok...same age. Manz...so hilarious.
After dinner, went back down to the basement to get ice-cream. There was this stall selling gelato ice-cream. Looked heavenly. This time, dear Nad wanted to collect the spoons. Coz they are cute colourful spoons. *lol*
What a fun time we had. Haha...
September 13, 2004 @ 12.05am
this world
It does feel weird to be finally blogging. Supposed to be a daily blogger...oh well...Let's start off with the last season of Buffy. I was expecting a better ending. Preferably something like season 4 or 5. So, the last episode for the last season of Buffy did not go off with a big bang.
Well, Buffy and gang managed to save the world once again from evilness. *Read: Actually Spike was the one who saved them all* The First was destroyed. Oh really? *raises eyebrows* Sunnydale was...well...reduced to nothing. Everything sank in creating this huge hole. Everybody just stares at it. Faith asks what Buffy's going to do since she isn't the only slayer now. *Buffy shared her powers with the other slayers-to-be using Willow's magic.* Willow in turn asks what were they going to do. Buffy just gives this little smile. And that's it. Really...I'm not kidding. That's IT. Wait a minute...THAT'S IT?!
Manz...
Mum went for this 3 day church retreat to Malacca from Friday till today. She's back now. But during the slightly-less-than-3-days, I did miss my mummy.
The last few days, the advertisements for the President's Star Charity have been playing on tv. The one which struck me most was the one on the 5-year old boy with aids. Each time it was played, it never failed to make me almost cry. We often complain that we never have time even when there is time for us. For him, there really isn't time. Time IS running out. And there is no choice. The only time left is about 5 years?
Imagine dying in your childhood. You never got to experience what life really is. You never got to make important decisions for yourself. You never got to learn what the world really is.
In a way, God is kind. At 5 years old, I don't think he really knows what is going on. So, he may live the rest of childhood *whatever's left of it* with full of smiles and sunshine. Feeling the love and warmth of his foster family. In the end, dying with the wonderful memories.
Moving away from that topic, you're not safe in this world anymore. Even in your own country. The recent bombing of the Australian embassy in Indonesia. The tragedy in Russia where school kids were killed. People talk about religion and God but do they really know what's the meaning? Do they really know what's the meaning when they kill one another? All they know is hate for one another and anger in their eyes.
What is this world coming to? What do we live for? Why do we even exist?
September 09, 2004 @ 4.10pm
picking
Taking a break from my editing and re-editing of stuff. Getting kinda sick of it. Never seems to end. I bet tomorrow there'll be more. Coz my colleagues are having a meeting with the client the whole day. And I like to think that sometimes the client can be quite fickle minded. But can't complain since they are the ones paying the company to do the task.I've finally realised that the toilets aren't safe. Why? The locks for the doors are those turn to latch kind. Which means when you turn the thingy to lock, on the outside you see the little circle turn red. When it's not locked, it's white. Thing is, under it there's this slot, like a cut. If I'm not wrong, if you put a coin through the cut and turn, the door should unlock.
Speaking from experience coz in primary school, the toilets were such. Of course I ain't so perverted to unlock the door when someone's inside. But we'll like have fun playing. So when the person inside is ready to come out, we'll help her unlock the door from the outside. It also comes in handy if there's an emergency where the lock kinda gets stuck. The ultimate would be to just climb into the empty cubicle next door to let yourself out.
Blah ah...back to my work.
September 07, 2004 @ 12.21am
never forget
Have you ever felt like you wanted someone to know you. The real you but it never happened? Instead he/she chose to believe other stuff?I can't forget how you never liked me calling you "oei" coz you said it was unladylike. I can't forget how you sing the Bob The Builder song. I can't forget how you helped me flip my fringe to one side. I can't forget the times you helped me with some computer stuff. There are so many things that make you special. An individual.
But no...you will never feel what I feel. Neither will I feel what you feel. Coz I'm not you and you're not me.
Life can be so horribly unfair. But I have to learn to accept it.
September 05, 2004 @ 9.40pm
new handphone
I got my new handphone yesterday evening. Samsung SGH-X430. Not my dream phone but can do. At least it's a coloured screen phone and not like my ancient Nokia 3315. *lol*Had to pay another $100 on top of the $48. Coz my plan is a lower-end one. Remind me to read the fine print next time. *slaps myself*
Watched "A Cinderella Story" with Nad today. Just love chick flicks. *lol* And right now, am exchanging emails with Nad, discussing the handphone model. The one where Hilary Duff uses in the movie. Brand is Samsung. It's blue. Maybe it's not sold in Singapore.
If you can solve the mystery of what the model is, leave me a tag or comment. Haha...
Nad said I sounded like I wanted to get that phone. Nahz...not my dream phone. Although yea...nice cool blue phone but it doesn't look like it has a camera. My dream phone is a flip phone with camera and antenna. Better still if it's a nice shade of pink or blue. Altogether now...say WAIT LONG LONG! *lol*
September 03, 2004 @ 8.54am
phone battery dying
Yesterday I tried my luck at lunchtime radio dedications again. This time I dedicated the song to Nad. Kimberly Locke's "8th World Wonder". And nope...Grace didn't pick my sms.Met Sis after work for dinner. I wanted to go check out the prices for handphones too. My handphone...correction, handphone battery is dying. Due to my overcharging, the battery is now a little cranky which makes it almost impossible to hold long conversations on the phone. Unless you want to risk getting our conversation cut off suddenly. So it's either I get a new phone or a new battery. Of course, I'll choose the former. Then finally I can own a colour screen phone. Mine's like probably ancient...Nokia 3315. Well, changing a phone now means I probably wouldn't get my dream phone *note: flip phone with camera and antenna* but anyway the phones which I'm eyeing on, the prices probably wouldn't drop to an all-time low until about a year or so.
Current Singtel phone deals...lowest pricing...Samsung's SGH-X430 at $48 or Nokia's 6100 at $68.
Anyway, Sis and I talked about radio and she suddenly asked me whether I was the one who won Alter Bridge's cd. Ermz...yea. Ok ok...I was bored. I had no idea what band that was. But from my internet searching. Thought the music from the band wouldn't be that bad. Need to look for new music...getting sick of the songs in my playlist.
Haha...now I know her workplace, the people on the radio the whole day. Maybe I should dedicate a song to her. At first I was thinking of Maroon 5's "This Love" or Black Eyed Peas's "Let's Get Retarded". But no, I'm nice...so yea...thinking now.
"let's get retarded (HA!)...let's get retarded in here..."
September 02, 2004 @ 8.31am
let's get retarded
Read from Streats yesterday that Susilo proposed to Jia Wei. So sweet. *smilez* I don't know, but I had this feeling he would propose to her when she returned to Singapore from Athens. :)Had dinner with Nad again yesterday. She was all excited about using her ezlink card to get points from Mac. So we went to Mac at TM. Haha...
The whole of yesterday, I was just listening to the radio while doing my work. Lunchtime dedications. And yea, I was bored enough to send an sms dedication. Grace didn't read out the sms which kinda said "I would like to dedicate Maroon 5's "This Love" to everyone". Haha...coz she said to keep it under 160 characters which is like really little so there you go, crapz sms. BUT YEA! She played the song.
"This Love" has this really funny tune to it that kinda gets stuck in your head after awhile. I was irritating Sis by singing the first few lines of the chorus over and over again last Sunday. Another song by Maroon 5 that's nice is "She Will Be Loved".
The good thing about listening to the radio is you get to know about new songs which are nice. Like Ashlee Simpson's "Pieces Of Me", Hoobastank's "The Reason", Black Eyed Peas "Let's Get It Started", Clay Aiken's "I Will Carry You".
Talking about the Black Eyed Peas song. I wanted to know the title of the song so did a search for the lyrics online. Oh! I thought I heard wrongly coz I found the lyrics for "Let's Get Retarded". Later on I found out that they re-did the song with different lyrics but same tune which is "Let's Get It Started".
Oh well...
"Let's get retarded...(ha!) Let's get retarded in here..."
September 01, 2004 @ 8.09am
8 freakin' am
I'm in the office at like what? 8am! 8 freakin' am?! I'm a whole half hour earlier. Even my supervisor doesn't even come that early. And that doesn't even give me the right to walk out half an hour earlier in the evening. How sad...Yesterday the server was a bit crazy so I couldn't really get much done. After work, met Nad for dinner. We walked to Funan Centre from the MRT station. Had pizza.
Our back and forth emailing has come up to 42 emails. RECORD! Now, anyone who wants a bit of company when they are working...you know what to do. Haha...
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