REAL ME version [14] color of your spoon - a place of thoughts, ideas and scribbles

March 31, 2004 @ 1.49pm

no more running

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Another photo competition. It's by Singnet. Prizes aren't that great but no harm trying for the love of photography for some of you. Details here.

Hehe...I seem to be promoting photo competitions. Must share the good stuff with you guys what...
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I was thinking of getting an mc for today. IN3D progress presentation and I haven't done much.

But now, I think I've changed my mind. No more running away from it. Even if I get an mc, I'm sure I will slack off the whole day. And I really need help with my modelling. I have no freakin idea how to start modelling the snails and the trees. Lots of questions...

Life is full of choices. Each choice we make, we have to face the consequences whether good or bad. I chose to slack therefore now I'm left with the choice to continue slacking or do something fast. The consequence of the former would be to fail and have to retake the subject. The consequence of the latter would be to finish the projects on time and at least pass everything. Elisia...you better choose wisely. Only you know the consequences of your actions.

We made changes to our ER Diagram. Still think there are a few small mistakes but they don't seem to get what I'm trying to say. Oh well...no time. Just hope the tables can be created and populated with information. And our procedures can be created smoothly.

Hmmm...maybe I'm the one who's blurz. I can't really visualise everything. I need to see things in pictures before I understand it fully.

March 31, 2004 @ 1.21am

what can go wrong, will go wrong

I'm stuck. Help! I don't know how to begin. I have to model snails and trees. I know I have to use the bevel tool. But the problem is how to start?! I seriously wanna bang my head against the wall. Should have thought of something simpler to model.

This is the problem about relying too much on the lab sheets. Fail le...fail le...*shakes head*

Argh. Hate the school for shortening the semester. Hate myself for slacking so much. All the projects due around the same time.

Thought we completed the ER Diagram for ORDS so more or less done. Who knows...Dennis said we gotta meet tomorrow to re-discuss coz there's something wrong with our diagram. Dave tried to create the tables and somehow couldn't drop them coz of the complicated primary keys, foreign keys and what-have-yous.

What can go wrong, WILL go wrong. This is very true.

March 29, 2004 @ 1.29am

weekend gone

Saturday...managed to go to the Shakespeare play after all. Mum bought tickets again. Still love the play. It's so hilarious. Of course they changed certain lines to suit the current situation.

After the play, went shopping with Sis and Desmond. Had dinner at Sento.

Sunday...had ORDS group meeting at 3pm in school. Finalise the ER Diagram plus ER Mapping. Although I still feel there are a few errors. Maybe coz I'm not too sure myself.

Left about an hour later. Went to see some houses near Changi Hospital. The one that we all like has finally been sold off. Yep...Mum is pretty much deciding to buy a house if possible.

After that, went to my grandparents house. My grandfather's 80th birthday. Simple meal.

And there goes my weekend. Didn't do any work. Dead...so dead...

The good news. Our 7ners blog is up! Thanks to Nad for her designing skills. If the rest of the 7ners are agreeable, I'll link it up here.

March 27, 2004 @ 12.58am

a child's innocence

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Just heard 2 stray cats downstairs fighting. That's what the stray cats downstairs my block do. Either they fight or they get horny. Serious.
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Finally. Took me about 15 minutes to get my computer running ok. Have been restarting it like 6-8 times coz everything loads ok then suddenly the status bar and the icons on my desktop disappear. Crapz. Computer's getting cranky. I have a good mind to reformat it after this semester ends.

My group finally completed the ER Diagram. Kinda lagging already. That's why Dennis called for another meeting this Sunday. Heck. I'm like lagging for every project. Slacking too much.

The weather's been kinda crazy these days. Sunny...sunny...sunny all day then suddenly heavy rain.

Stopped by Tampines library to return some books. Then went grocery shopping. After doing the shopping, while waiting for the lift, this cute little boy was playing with his mother's sunglasses. He was putting it on then taking it off. Amazed at how he could see although the sunglasses are dark.

He caught me looking at him. And he came up to me offering me his mother's sunglasses so that I could share his amazement at seeing the world through those dark lenses.

That's the wonder about a child's innocence. The world is that simple. Everyone is good. Everything is good. No problems with sharing anything with anyone. *smilez*

Cooked myself a bowl of instant mee with the works. Fishballs, green peas, crabstick, tau pok...in they went. Hmmm...should have cracked an egg too.

Spent a little time yesterday before I went to sleep, working on my new blog layout. If only I have the same drive in doing my projects. Boooooo...

March 26, 2004 @ 11.05am

so paiseh

Wah liew...so damn paiseh. I just walked into CMSK2 class thinking there's class as usual. Forgot that this week is also assessment week for the last group. Which means I have no freakin lesson today. Which also means I have no freakin lesson till 3pm today. Which also means I can start working on the ORDS ER Diagram.

My trial version of Microsoft Visio has expired. Bleargh. Means I gotta work in school.

Now when I say I have short term memory, you know why.

Had breakkie with Rajes and Stella. Hmmm...the Business canteen's chicken pie isn't good. Not enough filling. Plus the crust is a little buttery.

March 25, 2004 @ 10.03pm

wasting away

Nothing much today. Bought dinner from Pasta Mania. Since Wei En served me, she gave me a discount. Of course, like how a woman shops when she's at the mall, I stopped by OP to check out the new stuff. Nothing much but I got myself a grey racer-back top. Yay! One more off my wishlist.

Couldn't resist getting a My Little Pony from Toys R' Us too. Hee...

Sis is highly irritable today. In one of her almost depression moods. Little bit then get irritated until going to cry that kinda pattern. She didn't go to school. Just slept the whole day.

I don't know. I have this unexplainable anger whenever I see her sleeping the whole day, not going to school. I feel she's not helping herself. Just wasting her whole life away. If you know you won't have enough sleep then why do you make yourself sleep in the wee hours of the morning. Don't tell me you're doing schoolwork. Half the time I see you doing other stuff. You don't do your stuff, then panic when the deadline gets nearer. People start hounding you and you can't take it.

Why? Why make yourself so miserable? You got a problem. You want to overcome the problem. Then start doing something to help yourself. But I guess I won't really understand what she thinks. Depression is really complicated.

March 25, 2004 @ 1.29am

i will survive

Hmmm...got a bit negative there. People, I'm fine. I thank you all for the comments. See...that's what's so interesting about people. Everybody thinks differently. Some friends think that my course manager's being harsh. Some think otherwise. And there's neither wrong nor right. Coz there's a bit of good in everything. Well...that's what makes everyone different and special. They have their own set of views. :)

Yes, I do admit I'm quite undecided. Battling with my own "demons". One of them being confidence. Somehow I feel I'll never be good enough for some things. When really I should be more positive and find out what I'm really good at and be proud of it. OSIP right now really leaves me in a daze.

So tell myself, it's over. The interview's over. At least I tried. No use getting all dazed and frustrated over it. Life still has to go on.

Oh yea...the chant...*starts chanting* My lecturer thinks I'm a smart student.*keeps going* => personal confidence booster.

Whole lot of projects to complete. IN3D's pretty much a challenge. Not quite sure how to start. Got the idea on paper. But the challenge is modelling it. The rest's pretty much straightforward. Just whether I get stuck or not. Not much time left.

Time really passes by very fast. Few weeks more and I'm done with year 2. *provided I clear everything...choy...touch wood*

March 24, 2004 @ 12.42am

and the difference is?

Wow wee. All I can say about the interview was that it felt like one major grilling session.

I walked into the interview room, nervous yet excited but with just the right amount of confidence. Ready to face the 5 interviewers. Yet halfway through the interview, I felt my confidence slipping away. My mind was in a daze, full of thoughts as I walked out of the interview room.

Perhaps the course manager was just trying to act like a difficult person just to see how I react. Maybe he's really like that as a person. Yet I felt a little irritated. You see, he was trying to joke in a "sarcastic" manner. He also twisted some of my words...in a way. If he's really trying to put me down, I'm NOT stupid. You think by laughing and trying to make it seem like a joke, I do not sense it? I do not understand what you're trying to say? Here I am trying very hard to answer your question, there you are trying to make a joke out of everything I say. That surely is no way to lift the tension.

The way he said things. Bringing up all the worst case senarios, made it feel like it's just one huge mistake for me to sign up for OSIP. That was when I felt my confidence slipping away. I was trying very hard to hold on to whatever confidence I had left. I know that once I lose my confidence, it really does show. And all will be lost.

Shucks! Something came to my mind only after I walked out. They kept stressing the fact that OSIP is so darn different and important that what if I feel frustrated with it halfway? What would I do? Asked what I wanted out of this whole OSIP thing. Why not normal SIP? The thing that came into mind is that so? Isn't it the same with SIP? Just like you say...what happens if I feel frustrated with OSIP halfway? I can equally feel the same with SIP isn't it? Isn't that logical? And that led me to think that you guys feel that way about OSIP is the fact that if the student failed to perform for OSIP, it will spoil TP's image. Image concious...superficial...blah blah blah.

I'm sorry to say that sometimes it's really very sad. You really can't be the real you. You can't really say what you think or feel at such situations. Coz people only like to hear the good stuff. You must speak only the "correct" things or else you'll be branded forever as a bad person. But what IS the "correct" thing?

Oh well...it's over. I did try. I still thank the lecturers for bringing up issues that I've never really considered before. Life is full of choices. But sometimes you don't really have a choice in something. No matter what, you gotta deal with it. Make the best out of it.

Hehe...I finally got Elizabeth Wurtzel's "More, Now, Again" from Borders.

March 22, 2004 @ 11.52pm

yes i do

Woohoo! I can get to watch "The Passion of Christ". It's not R(A). First saw the advertisement for this movie on Mum's copy of Catholic News. Sis just confirmed that the movie is not R(A).

I don't know whether to feel happy for the couple or to laugh. Yesterday, I visited Jo's blog...Diary-X blog. A pink page popped up instead of her blog layout. Thought she changed her layout.

After reading the first few lines, I thought this person hacked into the diary-x system. And that page was some virus. However, I checked the link to the girl's blog and decided that it's not a hoax.

You see...the contents on that page was actually a proposal. For all the curious and kaypoh people. Yes...you can view the page here. And the girl blogged her answer. She said yes.

To which, 70+ people commented on that entry. Many to congratulate them. Some felt that it's not right. Marriage is a life-long commitment. Saying "I do" means that you promise to love each other, cherish each other, care for each other, go through the good and bad together and lots more.

Well, that's why the wedding vows existed right? I often wonder whether couples understand and mean what they recite or they just recite for the sake of getting on with the ceremony. Coz why do you make a vow...a promise only to break it in the end? Then is that vow that you made worth anything anymore?

Well, that's just my 2-cents worth on marriage.

Today is Kelvin sensei's birthday. Louis's famous words keep flashing in my mind..."worst". Can't believe I didn't even know. How can I not know it's sensei's birthday. He sms-ed me while I was sleeping at home. Asked if I'm joining them for lunch. I wonder if it had anything to do with his birthday. Damn damn damn...*stabs myself*

I only knew about it during the break before ADID lab. When Cas called coz they got him a slice of cake and a card. Wanted to surprise him.

IN3D presentation was ok. Nervous as usual. I dislike presentations. Get so nervous. And I tend to stumble over my words or forget stuff whenever I get nervous. Don't even know whether I was loud enough...bleargh. I bet I'll be pretty nervous for the OSIP interview tomorrow. -_-|||

Last night Mum passed us some money. Dad got a bonus at work so he shared it out with the whole family. Proud of my Dad. *beams*

March 22, 2004 @ 12.32pm

rush to sleep

An hour's sleep is never enough. But I'll grab the chance anyway. Back home after STMD lab. Supposed to come home just to grab those books for IN3D tutorial presentation. But since I'm feeling so tired and I've 2 hours break. Yea...sleep it is.

I do not eat lunch...I hardly eat lunch nowadays. Usually it's just fishballs, siew mai and ice mountain mineral water from the mobile canteen.

March 21, 2004 @ 11.31pm

new song, new wallpaper

New song on my blog. "Car Crashes" by Standfast. I think it's one of Nad's favourites right? It's quite an outdated song but I still like it a lot. Certain lines in the song...

Lyrics to the song...

"Car Crashes" by Standfast

Car crashes deeply shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People running (running)
Fantasy or reality
Analysis and theories
What does it matter really

Tell me what to believe
Won't you bring me yonder
Tell me what to achieve
Baby, so I can move over
Tell me what to believe
Car crashes deeply shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People run and run

Credit cards, a placid distress
Go live your life on the internet
That's what this is
Conspiracies and mysteries
Science-fiction make-believe
My guy's misery

Car crashes deeply shows
A drunkard on the side of the road
People running (running)
(All these car crashes in my head)
Fantasy or reality
Analysis and theories
(All these car crashes)
What does it matter really
(All these car crashes)

Wallpaper update. It's S.H.E once again. It's the cover of their 6th album "Qi Huan Lu Cheng". There are 2 versions for the album. This is the magical version...I also prefer the cover for this version. There wasn't a wallpaper made yet. So I scanned the cover myself. Taa daa!

March 21, 2004 @ 12.24pm

oh dear...

Slept pretty early yesterday. Midnight. Well, I normally sleep around 2+am so midnight's early. Was tired. Had a long day with no nap in between.

Was in school till 5pm. Finishing off the ER diagram. However, I think some parts we did wrongly. It's more like a mind map than ER diagram. My group members don't seem to realise it. And I find it difficult to explain. Oh well...we're approaching our tutor so I guess she'll point that out and have a better explanation.

Had Shrooms burger for dinner again. Sis wanted to eat that. So KFC again. In a hurry anyway.

Got ready to go to the Shakespeare play. And then the most terrible thing happened. Sis took out the tickets to check and to her horror, it was for 3pm, not 8pm. Apparently, Mum did ask for the 8pm show but the Sistic counter girl made a mistake. Mum didn't check the tickets. So there. Desmond called up Sistic to find out if there could be any exchange or refund.

Had to settle for a movie instead. Wanted to watch "My Girl" at TM at 9.10pm. Whoa...long queue at the cinema. Ended up watching "20 30 40" at Century Square at 9.15pm.

Okie dokie...need to get work done.

March 19, 2004 @ 11.35pm

more competitions

Those who have digicams...here comes another digital photo competition. This time by Health Promotion Board. More details here.

And for those who think they are pro at Flash MX and ActionScript. Something you might like to consider. More details here. Sounds pretty chim though. Not my cup of tea.

The results for the digital photo competition by IDA are out. View the winning entries here.

Good news. I got shortlisted for the interview for OSIP. It's next Tuesday. Seriously, I still think it's a pretty slim chance. But anyway...I've already come that far. Better to have tried than nothing at all.

CMSK meeting skills assessment was ok. I don't know if you consider it suay or lucky but I drew out the lot to be chairperson. Miss Ng said that whoever who got that lot must go and buy 4D. *to Wee Hua, Louis, Lay Chu and Siti* So, where's my number from each of you? *kidding* I think I sucked at being the chairperson. Hell...I don't even know how to be one. I was just racking my brains for what to say to move the meeting along. Anyway, it's over. :)

Heh...the reason why I complained about the Shrooms burger coz it's too SMALL! Ate that again today to confirm. Yep...definitely too small. Had dinner around 7.30pm and now at around 11+pm, I'm hungry again. -_-|||

I went to TM MJ with a mission to get the Xue Tian Shi soundtrack. When I saw the Arashi How's It Going? Summer 2003 concert vcd, I ditched the idea of getting the soundtrack. Heh...only got enough money for one item. So it's either or...too bad, Arashi was more appealing. Muahahahaha...

Tomorrow there's make-up lessons for ORDS. After which our group will be discussing on the ORDS project. Wanted to go to Toro's autograph session but project comes first. Oh well...never mind. Going to the Shakespeare play tomorrow with Sis and Desmond. Hehe...can't wait to laugh till my sides ache.

March 18, 2004 @ 10.32pm

advertisements lie

What you see may not be what you get. KFC advertised their new huge juicy mushroom and chicken burger on tv. In actual fact, the burger is nothing wonderful.

Advertisements are just an evil ploy to brainwash unsuspecting people into throwing money away. Muahahahaha...

Qoo towne is coming! Qoo towne is coming! 9 to 28 April at Cineleisure. Lotsa Qoo stuff. Can you say yay? *excited*

A few new movies coming too. Chick flick "The Prince and Me" starring Julia Stiles. Opening on 9 April. Then there's "Van Hellsing" opening in May I think. I knew about this movie some time ago coz Sis went to download the trailer. She also downloaded another trailer for "13 Going On 30" starring Jennifer Garner. No news about it yet in Singapore.

March 18, 2004 @ 1.26am

blasted dreaded nothingness

Words that came into my mind. Can one run away from one's thoughts?

Today's episode of Buffy was kinda scary. Dead people. Appearing then disappearing. The "don't look but there's something behind you" feeling. *shivers*

March 17, 2004 @ 10.51pm

books

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Shucks! I think last week was the last episode for the season of CSI. Bleargh.

On a brighter note, Buffy's BACK!
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Grandparents left for home *Malaysia* today.

IN3D is tough but pretty cool in a way too. Tough coz we gotta do a short animation for project 2. Gotta model the characters all by ourselves.

Cool coz you can even model real stuff. Like today's lab exercise was to model a can of Sunmaid raisins. Complete with the label. :) The other time was a vitamin bottle. Nature's Way Royal Jelly I think.

Since Mum and Sis were going to the hairdresser in town, decided to make a trip down too. For dinner. Went to Kino first. Bought a few magazines. Almost got my hands on Elizabeth Wurtzel's "More, Now, Again". The book I picked up was a little dog-earred at the bottom of the cover. Asked if they had a new copy. The one I was holding was the only copy left. Didn't buy it in the end.

Moral of the story: Elisia likes her books nice and new. No dog-earred covers or pages, thank you very much.

March 16, 2004 @ 10.25pm

like normal

Ahhh...finally able to blog like normal, although I anticipate a few days of no entries in the days to come due to the on-going projects.

Having some problem with Haloscan. It's pretty irritating when the important entries do not have a comments box. Boooooooooo...

Oh yea...I've handed in my application for OSIP. Decided to heed Mr Douglas's advice and try out. No harm trying. There is a very slim chance I'll get in anyway. Even if I don't get it, at least I'll be contented that I did try.

Sis might be slipping into her depression problem again. She woke up today feeling all wrong. Mum took leave to make sure she was alright.

Went to school an hour earlier. Needed to prepare the STMD tutorial.

There was HR Management tutorial. Mrs Tay returned our PBL Problem 1 report. Our group didn't do too well. 68%. I looked through it and was rather horrified. That was why I said I didn't really trust Joel. Instead of organising the stuff and retyping it, he just took whatever information we passed to him and put it in. Oh well...

Was supposed to meet Nad after her work at Tampines MRT station to pass her the LIME Celebrity Double Search at Zouk invitation. Forgot about it until I was bathing. Checked my handphone. *phew* She just messaged to say she's on the way. In the end, I asked if she could come to my house instead. Apologies to Nad.

March 16, 2004 @ 7.46pm

yesterday's entry

Went to get my mc. Stopped by at the library to look for books for IN3D. Found one on 3D characters.

Continued working on the STMD proposal.

At 1am, finally done! Yay!

It's getting hard to blog regularly. A lot more projects to be completed. Mad rush.

For Friday to Sunday's entries, click "previous"...

March 16, 2004 @ 7.43pm

sunday's entry

Time to chiong projects.

Started to work on the STMD proposal. Stopped around 6pm to bathe and get ready for dinner. Dinner with relatives.

Reached home around 11pm.

Worked on the STMD proposal till around 2am. After which, I had no choice but decide to take mc for the next day to finish it. Couldn't work anymore. My grandparents need to sleep. I was feeling tired anyway. There's still IN3D to do.

March 16, 2004 @ 7.40pm

saturday's entry

Couldn't make it for the make-up IN3D lecture at 8am coz I was really very tired. Thanks Xiu Wei!

Went to school a little later to help out with the JCG drama screening. Poor response once again. Only me, Qi Yuan, Shi Ming and Darwin. Heh...all JCG members. I left at 1pm...a little earlier.

Met Sis, Da Ge and Zhi Hao. All meeting up to go to the IT Show. At the bus stop, Raynor, Cas and Xiu Wei joined. At the interchange, Sis left to meet Mum for lunch. I went on.

Met Yingwei and Clare at City Hall MRT station. Whoa...the crowd moving towards Suntec. All going to the IT Show. At the IT Show, worse. Met Shaz halfway. Thought I saw Meliza helping out.

After about 2 hours at the IT Show, I left while they got a drink. Going to ACS Institution at Dover Road for S.H.E's mini concert. Thought there might be a really long queue. Not too bad actually when I reached there.

The concert lasted for about an hour. Managed to take a few shots and 2 short video clips. Yay!

Called Sis. She was in Orchard with Desmond. They too haven't had dinner. So I went to meet them for dinner at Taka.

While walking to Taka, at the carpark outside Somerset MRT station, saw this couple. The guy was holding the umbrella *it was raining*. Suddenly, must be some dispute, he just let the umbrella fall to the side and he started pulling the girl by her hand.

I hate guys who get violent with girls. What the hell. Just coz males are the so-called stronger gender, that gives them the right to get violent? That's why girls cannot be too girly. Must be able to fight back to protect themselves. Must be able to stand up for themselves.

Reached home feeling tired and achy all over again.

My grandparents are staying in our house till Wednesday.

March 16, 2004 @ 7.38pm

friday's entry

ORDS lab test. Managed to get the procedure created. But there's some parts wrong in my procedure coz when I run, the results I get aren't the supposed results. Oh well...Mrs Ho said I was getting close to the answer.

Rushed down to Cineleisure in a cab. S.H.E's autograph session. By the time I reached there, it was about 6.30pm. Whoa! The queue was horrendous. There was no proper barrier. The queue was just formed behind cineleisure, near Long John's, on the grass patch.

I didn't want to go queue up yet. From experience, the queue will go haywire once S.H.E comes.

S.H.E arrived around 7pm. Couldn't see anything coz the tent flap was covering. The tent was faced to the front of Cineleisure anyway. By then, the queue was starting to go haywire. But queue was still visible. Police chasing people to just go on the grass patch. I just remained on the pavement.

Around 7.30pm. Saw Joycelyn and Duan Neng. They wanted to go queue. I decided to join them. 8pm. We only moved like 50m. What the hell. The queue doesn't even look like it's moving.

Suddenly, the dreaded happened. The queue went haywire. Everyone started running forward, forming a crowd. One lump...as Joycelyn described. It was really stuffy but nothing could be done except to pray hope that the crowd would move along faster.

A few hours pass. The left side of the crowd *my side* haven't really moved. Only a few metres. People are starting to get impatient. A few yell out at the police to do something. There were railings on the side. The only way to get out of the crowd would be to climb over the railings which was a little risk. At about 10.30pm, the thought of giving up and climbing over the railings crossed my mind. On both sides of me, people were almost crushing my bones. I was thinking it might be impossible that S.H.E would even autograph everyone's cd. However, Joycelyn and Duan Neng weren't ready to give up. So I made up my mind to persevere with them.

I could hear my handphone ringing non-stop but I couldn't even get my handphone. Squashed.

Alleluia. 11.30pm, the crowd finally starts to disperse and actually move. It was declared that everyone's cd would be autographed. Our perseverance paid off. We were the last few in the queue. Checked my handphone. 12 missed calls and a message. Messaged Mum to apologise and told her I'll be sharing a cab with the Joycelyn and Duan Neng.

12 midnight and I finally got both my cds autographed! I got to shake all 3 hands. Selina was softly singing along to "Bo Si Mao" which was playing out through the amplifier. Ella was the friendliest. She thanked every fan whose cd she autographed. Hebe was a little disappointing though. She didn't even smile or look up. Just signed and pushed the booklet along. But I guess she's tired.

The 3 of us were awfully thirsty. Got a drink from Cheers. Then shared a cab home. By the time I reached home, my body was aching and I had a headache. My eyes were dry. Stupid me forgot to bring out the eyedrops.

The stamp reads "S.H.E @ Singapore".

2 versions of S.H.E's new album.

Hebe didn't sign properly on this one.

March 12, 2004 @ 10.55am

sorting

Ok...projects all coming up now. Have hell a lot on my mind. All jumbled up. Need to prioritise so I can get things done.

Targets for this/next week...
Things to be done:

1) Decide on whether I wanna try for OSIP + clear whatever doubts/questions *Gawd...Elisia, you do take a freakin long time to decide...*
2) STMD project proposal
3) IN3D planning + search for books
4) HR MGT "Change Management" notes + look through books
5) ADID planning + decide on organisation
6) ORDS ER diagram

Alritey...this will serve as a reminder. And right now...I should work on the agenda for CMSK2 Meeting Skills.

March 11, 2004 @ 11.41am

back home

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Effective advertising. After watching that advertisement, Sis decided to go download "Hey Ya". And she insists on playing it now. Feel like blasting back Black Eyed Peas's "Shut Up" in response. Wahahahaha...
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[edited at 11.44pm]
The project meeting lasted for only 45 minutes. Haha. We decided to prepare the ER diagram individually then meet up again to finalise things.

And it rained heavily...AGAIN. -_-||| Spoilt my plans. Went to TM instead. Mini shopping spree? Haha. Got both versions of S.H.E's latest album. OP's got new stuff. Too bad...didn't have enough money so I didn't go check the stuff out. Don't wanna get tempted even more.

I did go walking in the rain. Had to drop by the library to get some books for the new HR PBL problem. Only had my file to provide whatever miserable shelter there was from the rain. Plus I'm wearing slippers. I hate it when it rains and I'm wearing slippers. Makes it easier to slip.
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Heh hey! I'm back home. Having break now, going back to school later. Since the rest are having lessons or doing their projects, that leaves me alone. And I need to get my ORDS stuff...yep...home it is.

Having ORDS project discussion after school. Dennis informed me this morning which is kinda short notice. I didn't bring my project specs and notes with me.

Was planning to maybe go down to the IT show this afternoon. Since I finish at 2pm. Plus the fact that I won't be free tomorrow and Saturday. Sunday...not sure. Might be busy preparing certain projects. And my paternal grandparents and uncle will be in Singapore for about a week or so. I think we gotta entertain them on Sunday. Hmmm...I think the rest might be going today.

Anyway, can't go now since I got ORDS project meeting. Depends. Maybe I might drop by after the discussion if it ends early. Then maybe not...coz I might feel lazy. Haha...

March 11, 2004 @ 1.17am

80 years

Went down to school a little earlier coz PK was in TP. She dropped by for a little visit. She was really excited. For what reason, I really don't know. Perhaps studying in TP for almost 2 years already, makes TP just normal and boring.

Had lunch with PK and Jo at Design school canteen. Saw Mr Douglas. Had a quick chat with him.

And us 3 girls gained the experience of having a cockroach crawl around our feet. It happened too fast for us to even scream. I'm amazed...truly I am. Anyway, die you blasted cockroach...die.

I went off for IN3D lab. The other 2 went to watch "Big Fish". Rajes and I were delighted to finish our lab a little earlier. Rajes asked Michael Shaw to let us off earlier since we're done with the exercise. The amused Mr Shaw let us go after a little thinking. Haha...

Went to my grandparent's house. To celebrate grandma's 80th birthday. Dinner was soya sauce chicken. Grandma's favourite.

March 10, 2004 @ 2.39am

blah blahs and thank yous

Thanks Ling and Cas for the thoughtful comments. Keep those comments coming in, I really would like to hear your views on overseas SIP. Coz there might be areas I've not taken into concern.

Anyway, I still have many questions regarding this issue so at the moment I'm not certain I'll try and apply.

Rain has since stopped. But after continuous raining since yesterday, the air has gotten a little cold. Although I was wearing a long sleeved tee this morning, I was still feeling cold. And the smart aleck me decided not to bring a jacket today. Even at home without the fan turned on, my feet are still freezing.

Ooh...and everytime it rains heavily, I start thinking about the earthwormies and their flooded homes. Then they crawl out onto the pavement which is a disgusting sight. Wormies...eew.

March 09, 2004 @ 1.27pm

attachment

Just had the SIP briefing this morning. Everytime I think about it, I fear. I thought about doing SIP in school. Sis said that it's better to be attached to a company. She said you'll go further, gain more experience. Yea...I do agree with her.

But I still fear. I always fear that someday I'll just make this huge mistake at work and then I'll be doomed. Or else I'm not sure about something and my supervisor won't be happy. It's like "you should have learnt this stuff in poly so how come you don't know?".

I find I'm just the usual, no exceptional flair in this course. I just clear whatever exams there are to clear. Yea...I do learn new stuff...*confused*

Sis said that if I keep fearing this and that, I will never get to try new things. It's so easy to tell me to have more confidence. But I think most of the work will be on my part. It's something I have to overcome myself.

I'm also seriously considering whether I should try signing up doing SIP overseas. There's Australia, Finland, Hong Kong and Thailand. Apart from Thailand, I'm quite ok with the rest of the places.

I've always wanted to go on those student exchange programs. Yea...there is the learning part, classes and stuff. But the one thing that attracts me is that you can learn about the country's culture at the same time. The differences and similiarities when compared with Singapore.

However, there are limited places in this overseas SIP and I doubt I stand a chance. I'm not considered wonderful in terms of academic work. I just clear them. No sky high grades or anything. I'm not very active in terms of other activities. Except that now I do get to help out or plan certain activities in JCG coz I'm in the subcomm. But JCG is not considered one of the huge, busy and recognised clubs.

Don't even try to ask me to quit JCG coz it's my interest ok. I won't just go join something else to get way more points. Interest is a huge factor.

Perhaps I should talk to my parents about it tonight. Need to make a decision quick coz the submission for overseas SIP is 15 March.

*sigh* I hate making such decisions coz I cannot regret later. There's no room for regret.

March 09, 2004 @ 12.03am

ame

Ame...is "rain" in Japanese. Yupz, it's been raining all day already.

I guess since half a semester has gone by without much projects, they are taking the opportunity to make up for it in the second half of the semester. ORDS, STMD, ADID, IN3D, HR MGT... Time is running out. Gotta get out of slacker mode.

Rajes had a good surprise for me. Since I skipped HR tutorial last week, I didn't get to see my term test paper for HR. She told me I got 35/40 which is the highest in the class! *jumps up and down* I couldn't believe my ears coz it was last minute studying and the last question on On-The-Job Training, I didn't study that so I just crapped whatever I could.

Mum decided to cook dinner today. And whoa...did she cook a good spread. She tried cooking nestum prawns but it turned out a little too buttery. I love Mum's cooking simply coz she knows what we like and what we don't like.

PK has entered the pillow fight pic for the digital photo competition. I suggested she entered that one. So exciting! Ermz Jo...hope you don't mind. I know you took that photo for us but the digicam's PK's... Anyway, to view the pic, click here. *encourages* You guys all go try and take part ok? No harm trying...

March 07, 2004 @ 5.40pm

plagued

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Wahahahaha...*rofl* I was looking at Sis's cookbooks. Came to one with a title in cursive. Looking upside-down, it looked like "nutritional food". I quickly glanced up and saw it was a book by "Reader's Digest". My slow mind decided to put the 2 set of words together and I went "oh...it's by Reader's Digestion!" to my Sis. As soon as those words escaped my lips, I realised my mistake and started laughing so hard that tears formed in my eyes.
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Getting a little frustrated... These days my computer keeps giving me problems. Either it doesn't start up right so I gotta restart a few times. Or else I can't install some program coz the program has encountered an error and has to close. Like I need to use Apache for STMD but it refuses to work. Super duper bleargh. Don't tell me I need to defrag my computer again?
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Had dinner at Mac with Mum. We were looking for a light meal coz ate too much for lunch.

Finally talked to Dad about going pubbing. He said he knew about it coz Sis told him already. Anyway, he was cool about it. Yupz...that's what I like about Dad. He allows me to make my own decisions. Not saying that he doesn't worry for me, he does caution me about the dangers but he lets me try things on my own instead of saying no straightaway.

Just saw someone's quit message in IRC #jpop. "The greatest pain is not to die but to be forgotten and ignored". I'll agree with that. Heh.

Woot. Heavy rain now.
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I was commenting a few days ago on Raynor's blog about how I've learnt some time ago that most of the time, we do things to please others when it is said that we should do things to please ourselves.

Well, classic example came along in Wan Ping's blog. I think she was doing badly for cheena all along and she got a B3 in the A's. Something wonderful right? So, excited her called her mum to tell the good news. Yea...and all her mum said was "oh ok" and then hang up the phone. By the way, her mum expected an A.

Enough said. I don't think I need to cite anymore examples. And besides, doing things to please ourselves would be deemed as being selfish right?

Cheng Huat decided to unlock his blog and put back his tagboard. For the benefit of all his readers... And the tagboard's again plagued with those super bo liao people again. Hmmm...I even wonder if it's just one person.

Anyway, it's funny how these people waste their time. And none of his friends are posting on the tagboard to defend him. I think they're all watching the "show". Laughing at how these people waste their time trying to make Cheng Huat look like a fool when in actual fact, these people are making fools out of themselves.

March 07, 2004 @ 3.15am

digital photos

Hehe...uploaded new photos. As in new set of photos. The photos were taken some time ago. 5 of them taken in Australia last year.

The response for the drama screening wasn't good. There weren't any non-members. The response for "Moon Child" was better. Maybe coz that day was Open House. And people are more aware of that movie since there's more publicity for that movie. Dramas...ehz...unless there's some famous actor or actress. Unfortunately for "YUA", there aren't any well-known artistes. Unless you're pretty into Japanese stuff then you'll know who Sachie Hara and Misaki Ito are. Or if you watched "To Heart" before then you should find Sachie Hara familiar.

Some idiot pulled off the YUA poster/notice from the IT school noticeboard. Lucky I had an extra copy that's already stamped with the SAA stamp.

Hehe...it's been some time since I ate food court food. Didn't know the Century Square food court has a western food stall. The chicken chop's gooooooooooood. For $5.50, you get the chicken chop, fries, baked beans, salad leaves, piece of bread and a sunny-side-up egg. And they are pretty generous with the sauce.

Dinner with the family at Sento.

Got Arashi's new single from HMV. *Per, you read that?*

I've decided to take part in the IDA Fun Moments! Online Photo Competition. I knew of this competition through my singnet account. That's before Lee Leong put up an enticing notice on Ole. All STMD students who take part in the competition, if they win, he'll award them extra marks for STMD. Wow wee... I'm not exactly concerned about the extra marks coz they just come as a bonus. What bothered me was what pic to use to enter.

My home toilet is not named my thinking place for nothing. After spending time in there, bathing and thinking at the same time, I finally decided on a pic to enter. Well, it took me THAT long to decide coz I didn't want to enter something that was pretty common. Used a few skills that Miss Chia taught us before. To think more...not just the usual.

Anyway, if anyone's interested to take part, click here. Good luck!

To end off this entry, a piece of good news. Noah's Ark has resumed "business" in Johor after their lease in Singapore was up. There's hope once again for more abandoned and hurt animals. Unlike SPCA, Noah's Ark does not put to sleep any animals due to lack of space.

This does not mean I don't support SPCA. It's just that people gotta learn that having a pet is a huge responsibility. This animal relies on you to give it a home, food and tender loving care all its life. Don't give it hope only to cruelly snatch it back.

And of course, cruelty to animals is evil.

Wallpaper update...it's Jessica Alba as Honey Daniels. Winamp skin is Ai Takahashi from Morning Musume in the song "Go Girl! Koi no Victory".

March 05, 2004 @ 11.36pm

hip hop

Yay! I caught "Honey" with Nad today. Hehe...the 2 of us were dying to watch that movie.

Met her after school at PS. The movie was cool. Although it doesn't really have a storyline, but the hip hop dancing is cool. Hmmm...but the meaning behind the movie's good too? Coz the main character Honey Daniels (played by Jessica Alba) teaches hip hop dance to street kids so they'll have a good future instead of letting them waste their lives on crime and drugs.

Got back my ORDS term test script. And I...passed! Thank God! I heard a lot of people failed. I thought I'll be one of the failures coz I really have not much idea on ORDS. Although it was a borderline 45/75 but that's ok for now. Gotta pull up my socks though.

Tomorrow's JCG's drama screening of Taiho Shichauzo (You're Under Arrest). Am helping out.

The kitty pic on Nad's blogcam reminds me of her...

The orange kitty in IT canteen. This pic was taken by Sof.

March 05, 2004 @ 1.11pm

doing the opposite

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The IT fair is back. IT SHOW 2004 at Suntec from 11-14 March. There are 3 things on my mind. A new digicam...since there are problems sharing it with Sis. Plus I still have battery problems. Not sure whether it's the digicam or the batteries. Anyway, if Mum doesn't agree on this then I'll probably save up some money to get one.

Laptop. Hmmm...not exactly a die die must get but still worth giving it a thought.

Thumbdrive. I think my zip drive's spoilt. And I don't wanna risk more zip disks getting spoilt. Every new zip disk is $15. I've actually thrown away about $45. You do the math. A thumbdrive is also not a die die must get. I'm actually deciding whether to get my zip drive checked, replacing it and then forgetting about getting a thumbdrive.

PK...you bought your digicam at the fair before right? And you were saying that you got a good bargain out of it right?

Anyway, those interested in the fair. Details here. I'm planning to go. Anybody wanna join me?
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A certain thought just crossed my mind. Sometimes we act the total opposite to hide what we really feel. I guess it's a way to give yourself more confidence or it could be plain deceiving yourself.

I realised I was acting in an all crappy manner at home a few days ago. That was coz I was feeling nervous about something. Well, I started acting like a siao char bor. Laughing out loud at all the slightest things. Although I found it weird, I couldn't stop.

I see the same thing with Sis. Mum was the one who pointed it out to me. When Sis gets stressed or her sanity is hanging on a thin line, she starts acting like a siao char bor too.

Not saying that whenever I act like a siao char bo means I'm nervous or insecure about something. There are times when I simply am just like that.

Anyway, that day when I was acting funny, Desmond was telling us about how there are monkeys near his camp. Then Mum joined in saying that yea...these monkeys even have gangs. I found that very hilarious. And a picture of 2 monkey gangs appeared in my mind. You know how staring incidents are right? So...

Monkey gang 1: *stares at monkey gang 2*
Monkey gang 2 leader: Wah lau. Stare stare for what? See their faces already buay song. Come! Long zong hoot ah!

*and both gangs start fighting*

Typical staring incident.

I skipped HR tutorial this morning. Too sleepy.

I wonder how's Xianglin and her results. PK...CJ...all the other A'level students. Hope everything goes fine.

Some would laugh. Others would cry. Some or a particular few would jump out of their chair so hard that their watch would fly about a metre away *tsk tsk...Dorothy at O'level results day* *rofl* Anyway, just accept whatever there is. Look and work towards a better future.

God bless.

March 05, 2004 @ 2.39am

some more

I really should be asleep by now since I have a 9am class and classes end at 6pm for me.

Darn...my handphone keeps flashing that "Battery Low" sign.

Gotta remember to choose my CDS for next semester. I didn't even know it's open for selection. Didn't even dawn to me when Jillene called regarding selection of electives for her. Only dawned to me when Wei Ming wanted to go to the library to make his selection.

Usually I would wake up just in time for the opening of selection. Kiasu lahz...

Haha...reminded me of how my conversation with Jillene started. Hilarious...a bit paiseh too. She called me. Since the number didn't have a name, I asked who's that. I heard "Eileen". And she was going remember me? Xianglin's friend? I was getting very puzzled. And she repeated her name clearer. Haha...

She's got a new number that's why. Haha...make me so blurz only...

And now, the voice in my head yells at me to "GO AND SLEEP NOW!". *mumbles* Alright alright...

March 05, 2004 @ 12.42am

and tell me everything's gonna be alright

Today can be classified as bad and good at the same time.

Finally had lunch with you guys. Something we haven't done in a long while. Hey, hope we could be like this in 5 or 10 years down the road. Meet up again for a chat and a cuppa.

Went to watch a movie after school. "Timeline". Heh...I had no clue what the movie's about intially. As long as it's not horror or gory will do. The movie turned out to be not bad. This is the second time I watch a movie without knowing what it is about beforehand.

Halfway through the movie, Nad sms-ed to ask whether I watched "Honey" already. She wanted to watch it. There was 7.10pm and 9.10pm movie slots. 9.10pm would be too late since there's school tomorrow. Besides, I wasn't sure what time "Timeline" would end. Well, it ended before 7pm so I thought maybe I could meet Nad and we could watch "Honey". That'll be like a movie marathon.

Turns out she's just leaving her workplace. So by the time she travels back to Tampines, it'll be too late. Anyway, we just settled for dinner at Swensens. She needed some company to take things off her mind.

While waiting for her to arrive, went walking round the mall. Bought a top from 77th Street. Went to Toys R' Us. Childhood memories...wish I was a kid all over again. More innocence, less problems. The world is just one happy place to live in. Went to look at my favourite section. The My Little Ponies. *smilez*

Nad arrived. Had dinner. It was nice talking to her. Reminds me of the time at Long John's *winks* She became a listening ear to my problems. I listened to all she had to say about her workplace. She really went into detail about her workplace. Describing what she does, the funny things that happen. She wasn't ready to talk about her problems. Hey Nad, anytime yea...

And she treat me to dinner! Thanks! *hugz* Next time's my turn ok? And thanks for meeting up. Really appreciate it since I had some things on my mind too. So we both needed a breather. :)

I'm quiet only for 4 reasons. 1) I really have nothing to say. 2) I don't know the person/people well. 3) There's something bothering me. 4) I don't usually have a lot to say. Most of the time it's coz people ask me questions.

Tomorrow's the ORDS mock lab test. Gonna get back my ORDS term test script too. I think I'm gonna flunk it. :(

March 04, 2004 @ 1.40am

memory loss

Yea...another post. Decided that it didn't feel right to go under the previous post title. So there.

Thank God for me and my "wonderful" memory. My memory needs a little push to remember things.

Just yesterday, I saw Per online with her nick "Little Miss Chookies". I was puzzled why she used that nick. Coz Australians call chickens, "chooks". She replied that she used to use that nick. Well, that was a push to my memory. And I remembered she told me before that coz of a typo error, "cookies" became "chookies".

Aunty Mdm Heng *cleaning lady* called today to tell Mum about the vacuum cleaner. Mum asked both of us about it. That's when I realised I forgot to tell her about it. Aunty told me on Monday to tell Mum about it and I cleanly forgot about it. Oh dear...

And lastly...I forgot to mark down on my calendar to keep the evening of 20th March free. Going to the shakespeare play *the pic that I posted earlier*. When Sis told me, I told myself to go write it down on my calendar. Guess what...I forgot.

I keep forgetting to ask Raynor whether it's ok to upload the flash file *for the music here* to trilight. Don't want to get him into any trouble.

God knows what other things I've forgotten...

March 04, 2004 @ 12.28am

fullstop

Thought that the fullstop might be drawn tomorrow. But I guess it was meant to be drawn today.

And with that, another chapter ends. I had to make a decision fast. And I believe that when a decision/choice is made, don't turn back. I do not regret anything. There is no room for regrets, only to look forward to what's to come from now on. Whether good or bad, life still has to go on.

Remember the wallpaper before this? The Ayu one? The words "Some things are meant to be left unsaid". Some things were truly left unsaid. But by the simple actions, all was said. Actions really speak louder than words.

Alrighty now...Elisia-chan, ganbare!

I went to TM after school with the hope of checking out clothes. Feel like adding on to my cupboard of clothes. Ended up feeling lazy since I bought dinner. Didn't want to carry my food all round. That didn't mean I went home empty handed. I bought a few more colour pens. Mehehehe...colour pens make me happy. Have like tons all around the house but who cares. Seeing those colours and using them to decorate this and that makes me happy. Call me weird if you like...I oh-so don't care.

Woot...today's episode of CSI left me a little sayless *a word invented by Nad to replace "speechless"*. To think an 8-year-old girl can murder an old lady. Stabbed her with a pen. And the girl wasn't even sorry for what she did. She had this pretty scary hateful look on her face. Her words reeked with hate. And all she wanted was the old lady's cat.

Someday I should take a photo of our storeroom. The purpose of a storeroom is to store all the bits and pieces that do not exactly belong or fit into the other rooms. Or the stuff that's seldom used. I think our family makes FULL use of it. There's hardly any walking space left. And should anybody need something from the cupboards, they yell for me aka spiderman to climb to get stuff. -_-|||

Haha...Sis and I often laugh about it. Remember those programmes? The ones where they come and makeover your house for free? Or the ones that compete to win an award for best house or something? Wahahahahaha...they'll NEVER choose ours. We have TOO MUCH junk! *rofl*

March 03, 2004 @ 6.34pm

hungryyyyy

Mr Shaw should seriously hurry a little. It's already half an hour since class dismissal and he hasn't gotten to me about my lab test. And my stomach is growling louder by the minute. Yea...those who have heard it before would classify my stomach growls as thunder.

And so...the fullstop hasn't been drawn yet. Guess it'll be tomorrow.

March 02, 2004 @ 8.06pm

a time to talk

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Yupz...I think it's really time to talk.
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It's getting a little hard to blog some things here. Especially when you don't know who reads and gets affected by what is here. However, I really don't want to stop coz my blog has become my good friend. It is where I express how I feel and think. It's what goes on in my mind.

Enough is enough. I think it's time to talk.

I feel like crying whenever I think about how a friendship is headed for the rocks. I really hate to lose a friend. Friendships were made not to be broken or forgotten.

Maybe I'm just insecure.

March 01, 2004 @ 12.34pm

it's march!

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Curry rice! Oishii ne~~ Lalala...
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Xiu Wei is now a trilight-er! Yay! Welcome! *throws confetti and dances around*
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Stupid little bottle. Argh...it's a new bottle of eyedrops and it's so tight. *grrr*
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MARCH already! Half a semester gone by. Which brings me closer to SIP. *shudders* I often wonder whether can I make it?

Yay...Sis is cooking Japanese curry rice tonight. Well, hope everything goes as planned.

Yikes! I just realised I haven't gone to Per's house to get back the board games since new year. Sorry Per! I will get them back this weekend.