January 31, 2004 @ 12.20pm
abandoned
[edited at 9.44pm]Just caught the last few items of Chingay 2004 on tv. I was laughing at the last part. How they invited everyone to come on down to party. Although the feeling is pretty high, I wouldn't want to be stuck in a crowd. All the sweaty and sticky bodies. Eew. And I bet Orchard Road would be badly littered.
Got out of the house today. Had lunch at Nooch in City Link. Don drove Cas, Raynor and I there. New car...the smell of the leather is strong...smells nice. Met up with Da Ge and Lai Zhihao there.
After lunch, went down to Sim Lim Square coz Zhihao and Cas wanted to buy thumb drives. I just tagged along, cough cough coughing all the way. Cough cough cough...cough until I die. Bleargh.
All the talk of being a good listener. I realised I've just been bullshitting myself and everyone else all the way. I now understand the meaning of "Seek first to understand, then be understood". I shall practise this from now on. *to myself* Ganbare!
To everyone else, don't let the stress from work get you down. Minna-san, Ganbare!
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Just updated the links at the bottom. Some people have abandoned or password protected their webbies and blogs. The reason...mostly coz of privacy.
I'll continue blogging. I'm lovin' it. *smilez*
January 30, 2004 @ 8.09pm
be alright
Feeling better. Got my voice back. Yay...at least now I can sing. *victory sign*Thank God I went to see the doctor yesterday coz he gave me a stronger medicine for my headache/fever. Before that, every few hours I'll get a headache. I'll feel warm...slight fever. And for that, I have to pop 2 panadol pills to take effect. I don't like to be dependant on panadol. It isn't good.
Except...now I cough a lot. Got a lot of phlegm. Need a lot of rest.
The bad thing about getting sick is that I can't really go outdoors. Have to stay home and rest. Have to watch what I eat and drink. No heaty food or cold drinks.
I'm getting bored. Hmmm...ok...let me teach you people something silly to do. Just for fun. You know those security cameras. How they can be pretty irritating...like you're being watched all over? So, let's irritate them back. By giving a huge grin or big smile...or maybe a silly face.
I sure know that in HMV, there's a message pasted on the wall that says "Smile, you're on CCTV". So, let's just do that. Haha...
January 30, 2004 @ 12.32am
IN3D help!
[edited at 1.25pm]I panicked for nothing. But that's the problem with me...I don't have confidence in myself. Just came home from school. I'm on MC but I went to school to ask Kelvin for help. Sensei, arigatou. *bows* Thanks, Raynor for helping me too.
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I followed the surface settings. But the objects look nothing like the ones on the example picture. Not sure whether I did something wrong.
Is there a difference between LightWave 7.0 and 7.5? Coz when I was playing around with the rendering, we're supposed to take note about the rendering time and passes right? I don't see no options for passes on the render status window. And the freaking rendering time is like 0.2 seconds...isn't that odd?
H.E.L.P!
January 29, 2004 @ 7.05pm
everyone, ganbare!
[edited at 10.20pm]I know a song that can annoy people. It's "Shut Up" by Black Eyed Peas. It's either you love it or you hate it. *evil*
It's tough trying to talk. I find myself trying very hard...straining...just to make my voice audible. And I can't sing along to my mp3s. Bleargh. :(
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Stayed home today. Felt really sick. Couldn't drag myself to school. I finally lost my voice. I think I do have a slight fever, although most of the time it's just headaches. When having a headache, I ache all over and become really lethargic...like a pathetic thing. So...the moral of the story is take care of yourself. Make sure you're healthy. You really don't want to get sick when there's work to be done.
Everyone's really stressed out. Work is piling up. The school term's shorter so they are cramming everything. Especially the Enterprise people. Although I don't really know/understand the burden they carry coz I'm not in their position, but from the looks on their faces and from the stuff I hear, I can tell it's pretty tough.
So everyone...must ganbare! Shout it out loud...GANBARE! Friends don't be stingy...offer lots of support to each other ok? Remember when you're at the brink of losing your sanity, take a break. Go do something that makes you happy.
Okie dokie...need to get ready to go see the doctor. I hope I can finish some stuff tonight. I'm already lagging by a lot. Need a little help in IN3D only. Hmmm...
January 28, 2004 @ 12.47pm
none for me
[edited at 2.28am]I just discovered...my voice is going going gone... Oh no...please don't coz that means I will have to get teased again and I can't sing along to the songs when I'm playing my mp3s.
Time to get some rest...
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Tissue plugged in nose. It's dripping...like a leaky tap.
I couldn't resist watching CSI. Now I gotta pay the price. Need to get some things done before I can go sleep. Bleargh.
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Now even drinking water is a chore. I can't drink in big gulps. Have to let the water slide down my throat. Pain.
Got a headache. My body aches all over. Bad time to get sick. I'm afraid I will fall asleep halfway while doing my IN3D project. See lahz...all Sis's fault. Tell her don't talk so much during CNY, she don't listen to me. Talk and talk...spread all her germs to me. :(
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I can't have my planned fix of strawberry mentos today. I've got a sore throat. I don't feel like swallowing anything at all. :(
January 27, 2004 @ 11.40pm
strawberry mentos: makes one feel so happy
[edited at 2.32am]I've solved the mystery of my bruised gums. I've got ulcers that's why it's pain. But I think it's coz I banged them with my toothbrush and my gums got infected? Ulcers form coz the area is infected right? Just like when I accidentally bite my lip, it bleeds and after some time it becomes an ulcer. Smart me...clumsy me. Haha.
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*blush blush* I had my fix of strawberry mentos this afternoon. Finished the whole tube in about one hour's time. Strawberry mentos really makes one feel so happy. I think I'm going to finish another tube tomorrow. Yea!!! Woohoo...I'm addicted to strawberry mentos!
Listening to BoA's new album. Just bought it while waiting for the rest to reach TM for dinner. Avex's got a new marketing plan. It seems that every new album has got a vcd or dvd with it. And it's more worth it to get the cd with the dvd coz the cost is about like a dollar more than the one with the vcd only.
Was supposed to go with Cas and her church friends to the optical shop. Her friends wanted to get specs. Cas and I have to go there for the eye test. Ended up...her friends were going down to Toa Payoh by cab. It's late...no point the 2 of us travel down by MRT.
Had dinner with Cas, Xiu Wei, Paul, Raynor and Kelvin. Dinner was pretty late coz Raynor and Kelvin had the NSC stuff to take care of. I had to get out of the house before my parents returned or else I'll get grilled again. Walked around the mall while waiting. Dinner at KFC. Felt so cold. Today's a cold day. Been raining.
I can understand why...everyone's under stress...getting all upset, so they cry in frustration.
I really cringe when I walk up the stairs. Each flight has got the remains of a dead roach. It's so disgusting. *shudders*
There are some things which I don't understand. There are some things which I don't want to understand. I'm just protecting myself. Or am I kidding myself?
January 26, 2004 @ 11.50pm
be happy koi no yajirobee
[edited at 1.00am]Ouch...my gums hurt. I think it was after I knocked them pretty bad with my toothbrush. Don't ask me how I did it...I just did. I think it may be bruised or something? Ermz...can gums get bruised in the first place?
Wearing my pink My Melody pjs is a plus point...haha...the road to getting my sunshine back.
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Getting back my sunshine. Reminds me of the song by Tanpopo "Be Happy Koi no Yajirobee". A nice happy song.
After watching today's episode of Xi Jie Shao Nian, it really proves one point. Why do people learn to appreciate things only after they're gone? Humans and their weird behaviour.
Feel so tired today. That's coz I slept at 3am and had to wake up at 7am. Haha. I seem to sleep later when I tell people I'm sleeping early. Aiyah...coz Sis downloaded a new episode of "Hello Morning" and I was watching it too. Tsunku is one smart manager. His newest subgroup "Ah" features new member Reina Tanaka and 2 primary school kids from Morning Kids. He really knows how to market the girls and make loads of money.
I was practically falling asleep in IN3D tutorial. To the extent that Michael Shaw told me I looked like I was about to fall asleep. To which I answered "yes". What is there to deny manz? I only wish I could be like back in Secondary school. When I feel like sleeping, I just sleep. Reminds me of the time Miss Wee caught me falling asleep and she asked me whether I needed to wash my face. I said yes and got up to wash my face. I mean, most people would get embarassed or something. I couldn't care less. I'm sleepy and that's it.
Once again, the roaches invade! They fumigated the chute. Sis called to tell me the horror in our house. Totally disgusting.
I was supposed to have dinner with Cas. Mum "dragged" me to have dinner with them. I don't like last minute surprises...especially when I've made up my mind about something and I've to change my plans all of a sudden. Scowl scowl scowl.
I was told that Sis wasn't happy with me. WHAT! Like it's my fault that the roaches chose of all days, today, to invade? What the... *scowl some more*
Oh oh...if you like instrumentals, listen to music by S.E.N.S. I like "Wish" which was featured in "Kamisama mo Sukoshi Dake" *English translation: God, Please Give Me More Time...Chinese translation: Shen ah, Qing Gei Wo Duo Yi Dian Shi Jian* I fell in love with that tune not after I watched the show. I haven't even watched that show. It was after Sis tried playing the tune on the piano. And I'm sure most people are familiar with the tune "Forbidden Love" from "Love 2000". Yupz...
January 26, 2004 @ 1.18am
please return me my sunshine
[edited at 12.27pm]Well...my sunshine's not totally back but I guess a little's back. Just a wee bit. A small wee bit.
Cas sent me a cute sms this morning. It reads..."When things go wrong, when sadness fills your heart, when tears flow in your eyes, always remember 3 things... 1) U R CUTE! 2) I M CUTE! 3) THEY R ALL UGLY..." I'm smiling at the last point. Ok...I'm laughing. *realises the death stares from people* Ok...not funny. *zip* English lesson: shouldn't it be flow "from" and not flow "in"? Such sms-es make people feel -_-||| but you must admit that some make you laugh.
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Just finished preparing for my STMD tutorial. I feel a headache coming on. I think Sis has got nothing better to do. She downloaded Mr Bean cartoons to watch. Pushing her computer to the brink of crashing. Oh whatever.
Wallpaper update. Ayu on her Rainbow CD cover. Same winamp skin. Cold...icy cold.
Still got that strange void feeling. Blank stare...blank mind...blank everything. Talk to me. Make me feel like I exist. Please...
January 25, 2004 @ 5.10pm
emptiness
I lost my sunshine this morning. Yesterday, I was crying inside. This morning, I actually cried. Although there wasn't rain to mirror what I feel, I couldn't help it.I feel lost. Some thoughts can't be shaken off. I miss uncle. I feel frustrated at the fact that I can't go to aunty's house to pay respects coz it's still during CNY period. Anyone can tell me which bus will pass by Chai Chee and still get me home? I just want to pass by aunty's house.
Then, there's projects and assignments to complete. I worry I can't finish things on time. I know ultimately I have no one to blame but myself coz it's my own doing. I know I shouldn't talk much coz the Enterprise people have more to complete. But I have little confidence when it comes to school work. I neither have flair nor great great interest. I feel I'm just studying for the sake of studying. It's at times like these that I keep questioning myself whether I got into the right course.
And there's more. I can't express myself well enough when talking. Or else I can't find something common to talk about. I end up keeping quiet while everyone else continues.
Perhaps I should become a loner. In my own world, I won't feel ignored. I won't feel like I'm talking to the wall coz there's no one else there. Maybe yes...I think there's only the sky above me, the ground beneath me and the tree I lean on. I don't blame anyone. I'm not angry with anyone. Why should I be angry? I have no reason to get angry with people. It will only be selfish to do so. It will also make people feel unhappy which is something I don't like to see. I rather everyone remain happy. It's also tiring to get angry.
Or perhaps if I think like this, it sounds like it's just me me me, I I I. Selfishness. Alright. I'm selfish. I'm insensitive. I'm jealous. I'm tired. Now you believe me when I say I'm every other bad thing under the sun?
The only thing I learnt out of the whole episode this morning is that, the toilet is my thinking place, better still, my bed is my comfort zone. I seem to be able to let the tears flow better when I'm lying down on my bed. I feel comforted with my moo moo and monkey with me. Under my cosy blanket/comforter.
I've just come home not long from the library and mall. I believed the fresh air would make me feel better. Well, it did. I was walking around the mall with Cas. She wanted to buy some stuff. Somehow, I feel better. But there's still this strange void feeling inside.
I realise I'm making a big hoo-hah out of my problems. Oh yes...compared to many others, my problems become minute. I have a shelter over my head, a complete family, every material need...I shouldn't complain right? It's ok...I can deal with it...I will deal with it alone.
January 24, 2004 @ 9.32am
random blearghs
[edited at 11.20pm]Fuck. I feel like slapping myself real hard. Why do I have to learn everything from people's blogs? I feel so insensitive. In my own happiness and enjoyment of the holidays, I failed to take notice of some things. I just learnt that uncle has passed away from Cheng Huat's blog. And I'm blardee 3 days late. I don't know what to feel. Should I cry? Am I too late? Why do people learn to appreciate things only after they're gone?
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It hasn't stopped raining. According to my weird theory, it means that a lot of people are crying. Some having tears really flow down their cheeks. Some crying on the inside. Or perhaps you'll like to believe that heaven's gates have opened and there's showers of blessing.
I'm struggling to find peace within myself. To not have ugly thoughts. Perhaps my inner self is crying. I once again realise I have little or close to nil confidence in certain things. Sensei taught me not to rush things. But as hard as I try, I find that the gap is somehow getting wider. Perhaps I think too much. Simplicity gal...think simple.
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Can you say "yay" coz I'm in school now? Uh huh...on a rainy Saturday morning. The third day of CNY. Clap your hands and jump for joy...NOT. IN3D lecture was a bit sad? The lecture hall wasn't even half full. Perhaps if Michael Shaw gave out ang pows, there'll be a better response? Oh...is he married yet? Haha.
My grandparents will be going back to Malaysia. On the one hand, I feel a bit relieved coz that means I get full access to my computer once again. On the other hand, I feel bad coz of this problem, they have to shorten their stay. That's why I have been stressing on the need for my own room. I'm selfish ain't I?
I was laughing when I read Pwen's latest entry. See...she's excited over the limited edition Strawberry flavoured mentos too! It's the little things in life that make one happy.
I feel so bleargh. I have yet to start researching for my HR Management assignment. And I don't think it will be an easy task. Feel like watching a movie. Heh hey...movie junkie.
January 23, 2004 @ 5.49pm
i want to be...
[edited at 10.27pm]I just had a nice meal with my family. Had steamboat dinner with the family. All seated around a round table. Makes me feel very "xing fu". I thank God for a wonderful family. And I realise how fortunate I am. Treasure those around you while you still can...
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Remember how we used to want to be a superstar or some super hero? Sounds so childish now right?
Nahz...was just checking out blogs and a line from Raynor's blog caught my eye. He wants to get away from being a human for a day. Ermz...technically speaking, how to? Coz you ARE a human. But I do get what you mean. Our existence in this world is full of wants.
I want to be the brightest and warmest sunshine. What about you? And THAT, is the topic for the day...What do you want to be?
Talking about wants...I just had an evil thought. I want TP to crumble into bits right now. So that I can truly enjoy the holiday and stop thinking about the next project deadline or tomorrow's IN3D make-up lecture. Yes...I have a blardee 8am lecture tomorrow and it's only the third day of CNY. When they meant CNY as a 2 day holiday, they really meant it. All the neh nehs...
I'm about to be done with Dave Pelzer's "A Child Called 'It'". The true horrors of child abuse. What I couldn't catch was how his mother turned from a loving one to a monster direct from hell. Anyone can enlighten me?
The person's deaf. His freakin car alarm has been going off for at least an hour already. His car alarm doesn't even have a variety of sounds. Maybe next time, they should design car alarms as songs. Just like handphone ringtones. *thinks* No...I take that back. Then people would purposely set their car alarms off so they could show off their new car alarm tone. What the...
January 22, 2004 @ 1.08pm
my blog...my friend
I realised something while reading blogs. We are all the same. When we see each other, we all appear to be bright and cheerful. But somehow there's something bothering us that we're unhappy about and we pour out our souls in our blogs.Perhaps our blogs have become our friend, our confidant. For me, I find that my blog is my avenue for expressing how I feel. Sometimes I find it hard to express by talking. I find I express better when I write it out.
However, the only drawback I find is that I can only find out how a person feels by reading in his/her blog? Now...isn't that a bit sad? There's this feeling of being insensitive to others...how others feel. I would like to let you know that I will be there for you if you need a listening ear. If you need a hug. If you need another person's view. If you need to yell to that big open sea. If you need to run around like you don't have a care in this world. If you need a little encouragement. If you need a smile.
Take your time. Sort out your thoughts. Go into your thinking place. If you have one...or else I can share mine...*smilez*
PS: I'm adding this entry as a new entry so there will be a comment box. You guys can comment on the previous entry in this box too. Keep smiling!
January 22, 2004 @ 12.20pm
uh huh...it's CNY
Ok...I am feeling much better. At least Mum didn't yell at me after we came home late yesterday. And I'm glad that the reunion dinner is over. At least it's one thing off Mum's mind so she wouldn't get more uptight.Sis didn't join reunion dinner yesterday. She's not feeling well.
We met Wei Xiang to pass him his belated birthday present yesterday. Then, we went to Kino. Heh hey...Sakura Wars is now on comics. Yay yay yay!
I just changed 2 posters. So it's now Ayu's A Ballads in my room. And Ayu's Ayu-mi-x 4 in the study room. Mehehehe...
Ok...this entry is getting along the lines of b.o.r.i.n.g. Uh huh uh huh uh huh...
Oh oh...Mac's ice-cream cone is now 25 cents. As if 50 cents isn't cheap enough liaoz. So go...go go go...all you ice-cream lovers...get one now. Haha. I seem to be helping Mac advertise. Hmmm...maybe they should pay me. Muahahahahaha...
Still got about 2 days to go before the CMSK discussion board closes. And I haven't done anything. Better do something quick. See...it's CNY but we're not spared.
January 21, 2004 @ 11.50am
freakin CNY
I came home yesterday. I became the thing for Mum to vent her frustrations on. A simple question of where the new bottle of shampoo is led to me being blamed for having an indifferent attitude to everything. I don't like it when people accuse me of something I'm not.I wanted to change my posters. An activity to make me feel better. Then I realised the cutting mat was in the study room and I have no access to it since my grandparents are back.
I decided to read a little then go sleep. I realised something while lying on my bed. I feel sad that I have to feel and think this way. I cry. For once in my life, I DO NOT look forward to freakin Chinese New Year.
I don't want to be the punching bag for everyone to vent their frustrations on. Coz I come home the latest. And coz you people rush around making preparations until you're tired and uptight. You're tired, so am I. After this freakin 2 day holiday, I still have deadlines to meet.
Perhaps I wish there wasn't this holiday. Back to school. The monotony of life. At least the cycle is the same everyday and people don't get uptight.
I had to turn down Pwen's request of breakfast at Per's house at the last minute. I don't think I wanna leave the house early and have to hear biting words hurled at me later on. See...if I had school then I have to leave the house. And no one can stop me coz school is a MUST.
Oh yes...I'm disrespectful. I'm selfish. I have a freakin don't-care attitude. I'm every other bad thing under the sun. Thank you very much.
January 20, 2004 @ 12.45pm
silent screams
[edited at 7.40pm]Just finished filming. Luckily it didn't take that long. Now...just waiting for the guys to be done with their meeting then it's dinner time!
The weather's weird. Yesterday it was raining cats and dogs, today's sun was shining with all its might. I had to go home for a bath before returning to school for filming. But sunshine's good. It makes things happy. *smilez*
Wah liew...Nad posted the freakin emails I sent to Miss Tan about Literature. I sound so kuku. But I was really panicking at that time. Yes yes...and now the whole world knows I spent my time sleeping in class. Oh...like the whole world doesn't know already. But still...*whines*
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I finally got something to read. Cas's recommendation. Dave Pelzer's "A Child Called 'It'". The book is good. I've already read 2 chapters and I wince and my stomach flips when the character in the book gets abused by his mother. And once again, the main character in the book is actually the author. Writing his own story...his experiences.
I once got this touching poem through the email. It's about child abuse. Maybe I should go search for it then post it up here. Then there's a song...something which Sis recommended. Martina McBride's "Concrete Angel".
Going on to happier issues... Congratulations to Raynor and Kelvin!!! For making it to the qualifying rounds of NSC! *throws confetti, runs around the room, dances around, screams* Ganbatte ne!
January 19, 2004 @ 5.31pm
indifference?
So what if I just decided to refuse Sis's request for dinner? So what if I choose friends over family? So what if I'm being mean, selfish and every other bad thing under the sun? It's my choice. Whether bad or good. I will bear all consequences. I'm sick and tired of last minute surprises. Once I made up my mind, I don't turn back. Even if it eventually kills me. And I'm having dinner with Cas...that's final.Grandparents coming to stay today. Just that we don't know what time they're arriving. Which was why Mum let me eat out.
Enough ranting. It makes me more irritated every time I think about it.
This morning, ended up taking the public bus. Did they stop the shuttle bus service? I was almost late. Well, turns out Lee Leong was late. He just arrived on the dot. On the dot as in if he didn't arrive by then, everyone would assume there's no class. Lucky there was coz I'll have grumbled. Think about it...no STMD lab means I can wake up later...means no 8am class.
Tomorrow there'll be a second round of filming. I hope we end earlier this time. Tomorrow's my last day of school for the week. I don't have any classes on Wednesday. Chinese New Year...blah blah.
I have to blog now coz my grandparents will be taking the study room. They sleep early which means I won't have access to my computer tonight. *sigh* Wish I had a laptop...or my own room. If I have my own room, I want to be the one deciding on the decor. I want to stick glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling. I want to have a nice lamp where I can paint on the lampshade. Ok ok...I'm letting my mind wander off too far.
Okie dokie...shall I start another topic...since the response for the last one wasn't that good? Alright...topic of the day...*sings at the top of her voice* Do you have any weird theories?
I have! I have! I think everyone knows already right? About the rain. When it rains, it means that someone somewhere in this world is crying or feeling upset. So that means, if you are crying at that moment, you needn't feel alone coz someone is crying along with you. The weather mirrors what you feel.
Oh and about rainbows...they signify hope.
January 18, 2004 @ 11.36pm
d-snap
Picked up on my sleep today. To sleep is the only way to escape reality. In my sleep, I can dream of things that may not be possible in reality. However, I don't remember dreaming of anything this time. *sigh*Dinner with family at Century Square. Finally bought 2 rolls of plastic so I can change the posters on the walls.
I've been wanting to do this for a long time but I keep forgetting. You remember me talking about the Panasonic D-snap digicam? It's flat. It's cute. But it's only got 2.0 megapixels...bleargh. Anyway, in Singapore, the girl endorsing the product is the MTV VJ. Too bad for her...I still think Ayu's better. Ayu's way better. Here's the pics.
January 18, 2004 @ 12.31am
admirers
Had a long day out. Just came home from a movie..."Paycheck". Quite cool. I was feeling a little tired when the movie started. Told myself that no matter what, I cannot sleep. To sleep through a $8.50 movie is a sin. I think I still prefer chick flicks or movies with romance and comedy. Let's face it...I'm a sucker for chick flicks.Went to school for ORDS make-up lecture this morning. Xiu Wei was kinda disappointed coz she couldn't see my "new" look. I decided not to wear contacts today.
Went home. Lazed about for awhile before going out to meet Cas and Raynor. Cas wasn't really in a great mood coz she was tired. Raynor was starting to get a little quiet too. And I was starting to feel bad. Hey...I don't like seeing my friends unhappy.
Travelled down to Toa Payoh. Raynor had to collect his specs. Lunch at Mac. Met Shaz. Travelled to Ikea coz Cas wanted to buy a notice board.
Had a fun time in Ikea. Checking out the cupboards, beds and all the other furniture. Cas demonstrated the true Singaporean spirit by "shamelessly" taking a bunch Ikea pencils. Shaz gave me the little souvenir from Ikea...coz Raynor flicked out one of the keys from a display keyboard. Don't worry...the keyboard was just part of the decor. And anyway, it had like a few keys missing already. We talked, we laughed. And I realised it was too late to go home then come out again for Wei Xiang's birthday dinner. Had to give that a miss.
Next stop, Queensway. Checked out the sports shops. I didn't really like moving around the crowds.
Ride home...MRT...now here comes the highlight. Raynor found a seat and plonked down to sleep while the rest of us stood. I was listening to music and didn't notice but Cas and Shaz noticed these 2 girls checking out the sleeping "beauty". After awhile, I joined in the fun of watching the 2 girls *probably secondary school girls* steal glances. It was really funny.
Had dinner at the new KFC next to Tampines post office. There, the story was unfolded. Tons of laughter. After dinner, decided to catch a movie. PK sms-ed me to tell me that Julian saw me. Realised he must have been with Raynor's friend at KFC, the one who said hi to Raynor. And PK told me that Julian was standing next to me in the queue. I didn't even notice. But anyway, so what? Can't be bothered with such people.
Topic of the day: Since I asked about seats in buses the other time...now it's...do you have a favourite seat on the MRT?
I like sitting in the corner seat in the last carriage. The one next to the opening door. I feel that corner has some privacy coz there's only 2 seats in a row. There's something to lean on when I sleep...now that's a plus point coz I don't feel comfortable sitting up sleeping. Oh...and the last carriage has more seats available. How about you?
January 16, 2004 @ 11.35pm
any good reads?
Looking for a good book to read. Have long finished reading Xi Jie Shao Nian. Any to recommend? Before I plunge into another chinese book.I spent an agonising one hour in ORDS tutorial. I couldn't keep myself awake. I was nodding off non-stop. Every word I wrote would leave a long pencil mark trail coz I would fall asleep and lose control of what I'm writing.
Luckily the lab session wasn't too bad. I survived it.
Met Sis to go buy a present for a friend. Walked around while waiting for the rest to call. The guys were jogging today.
Had dinner in Long John's with Sis, Cas, Raynor, Kelvin and Shaz. While the guys were flipping through Cleo magazine, Sis and I were discussing about Mukodono 2003 and laughing away like 2 siao char bors.
Met my parents on the way out. Had to help them carry the stuff home. Talk about a workout.
Haha...I just realised something. Gone are the days where Raynor will keep telling me to "huan yan jing". Mehehehe...since I got contacts. Sis thinks I look better with specs. She says it can hide eyebags better. Come on...it's all the same. When you're living/working/studying in Singapore, you'll get stress and the eyebags come with it. It's like a buy one get one free kinda thing.
Suddenly everyone's coming out with new albums. 5566...S.H.E...Energy. And Energy will be at Bishan Junction 8 this weekend. I haven't decided yet. Might give it a miss. I just feel tired doing all the chasing all of a sudden. It's not like I have all the time in the world. It's not the holidays.
January 16, 2004 @ 1.32pm
extra big
[edited at 2.12pm]Argh...I keep falling asleep after writing one word for my ORDS tutorial. That's how sleepy I am. Anyway my lunch is ready. I shall go eat and then go back to school for another 4 boring hours.
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I'm not kidding. I things I see have become a bit bigger after wearing contacts.
I spent 15 minutes trying to get the contacts in this morning. Right eye no problem. Left eye was the one. Due to natural reaction, I kept wanting to blink.
Getting used slowly to the new vision. I was going to be late. Rushed. In my hurry, I forgot to take my handphone. So now, I'm back at home during my break. But it's good too. Since I haven't done my ORDS tutorial and not many people are having break at this time. Oh...and Mum's at home, so she can prepare lunch for me. :)
I had a good chat with Kelvin last night. It's been a long time since we had a nice long chat. Learnt quite a bit from him. He's my sensei. *respect*
Anybody needs heart-to-heart chats can always contact me. Haha. If you need to pour out what's inside, we could have a bubble tea meeting. Table number 5 please. Haha...
January 15, 2004 @ 10.39pm
tearjerkers
I finally got contact lenses! Yes...with my own moolah. Mum would never agree to pay for them. Got them at Annette's parent's shop at Toa Payoh. I was expecting the cost to be sky high. So much that my whole savings would be eaten up. Thankfully, it wasn't that expensive. Annette, please thank your mum. And I expect all of you must be dancing around, getting all excited that I finally got contacts.I got my specs tested for the degree first. I never knew my degree was that high coz I have never asked Aunty Jennifer (the optician I visit usually). When I need to change specs, I just change them. This pair has been with me since Sec 3/4. The degree is in the 700+ range. Then, got my eyes tested. Whoa...my right eye's degree went up.
Time to try on the contacts. It feels like poking my eyes. I had to try numerous times. The minute I pull my eyelids apart, my eyes start to tear. Then I have to put in the contacts...and my eyes will react by trying to blink and more tears... The whole table was littered with tissues as I dabbed my teary eyes. Finally managed to get them in. Blinked and one tear would just roll down.
Next, had to learn to take them out. Seriously...taking them out is way easier. Put them back on. This time it's slightly faster as I got the hang of it. I realised that I have to use my other eye to look in the mirror and guide myself. The first time I put them on, I kept focussing on the finger that was about to "jab" my eye. That's why it took damn long and painful. So much tears.
Next time anyone needs an actress to cry, I think I can volunteer. Cas said it's better coz then my eyes wouldn't get dry so fast.
Shaz was the fastest. Cas felt her eyelashes were getting in the way. I took damn long coz my eyes kept tearing due to natural reaction.
The contacts are ok. Except that I think I have to get used to them. My eyes feel tired after a long while. And I find that things I see get bigger? Maybe it's coz the lens is now on my eyeballs and not some distance away like with specs. Steps seem higher. Ground seems funny.
Broke the news to Mum. At first she was commenting that I better go back to my own optician to check whether it's ok. That's my Mum for you. So paranoid about everything. Then she couldn't believe I paid so little. But in the end, she accepted it. She just advised me to be careful and clean the contacts properly. Well...she has to accept it since I paid for them with my own moolah.
I was watching the morning news while I was drying my hair this morning. Timothy and Suzanne. Reminded me of how Per commented that they were so scandalous. Haha.
Forgot to ask certain people how are they feeling today. Damn my short term memory. Raynor...hope you're feeling better. Finally you're only 18. There's only so much you can do. Why carry the world's troubles and burdens?
And people...comment...on the colour of my toenails...mehehehehe... Oh yes...call me vain if you like, I oh-so don't care.
Hmmm...I should start working on my webby. I feel like trying to get it up before Chinese New Year. Or at least 50% of it. That is if my weekends aren't eaten up by projects and schoolwork.
January 14, 2004 @ 10.34pm
watching the clouds roll by
[edited at 11.46pm]Woooo...I just painted my toenails. It's one of the activities that Per would rate as something to make one feel better right?
Anyway, I was looking through all the nail polish I have. I thought of yellow. But the ZA one is too light...can't see. The other looks sickly? Tried orange. Too watery. I think I'm going to throw that one away. Light blue...too light...shocking.
Hehe...finally decided on the turqoise blue one. This is just the prelude before I get a nice black bottle of nail polish. The one Sis has is rather watery. Can see through.
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I'm feeling much better today. Got back my sunshine. I thank everyone for being patient with me.
I got to sleep in today coz class starts at 3pm. Thank God.
Met Cas for dinner at Yoshinoya. Went by the sports complex to pass Raynor something. Watched them jog/run. Watched the beautiful clouds roll by. Cas suggested we go jogging with them one day. Haha. I think one round plus and I'll be dead. I haven't exercised since I left secondary school. The days where bian tai Quah ruled for PE.
I'm so tempted to buy clothes but I gotta stop myself so I have enough money to get contact lenses. Maybe I'll ask Mum for money for clothes.
A little quizzie from Jillene's blog...
A - Age : 18
B - Band listening to right now : Band...nope...just singer...Namie Amuro
C - Career in future: Slacker. No lahz...I don't really know.
D - Dad's name: Confidential...wait someone blackmail me.
E - Easiest person to talk to: I think everyone is quite ok...
F - Favourite song at the moment: No favourites at the moment.
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Gummy bears
H - Hometown: Singapore
I - Instruments: Piano...but I gave up 2 years ago.
K - Kids: Some are cute...some are not.
L - Longest car ride ever: A few hours.
M - Mom's name: Confidential...wait someone blackmail me.
N - Number of siblings: One
P - Phobia[s]: Going between rows of fishtanks in aquarium shops. Or people pressing my face against fishtanks. Don't try...I WILL scream I tell you. I'm not kidding.
Q - Favourite Quote: I like this chapter title from Prozac Nation...it's got impact..."I hate myself and I want to die". I also like what Mandy Moore said in A Walk to Remember "I have no reason to be angry with God".
R - Reason to smile: There's no reason to smile. Smiles just bring sunshine with them.
S - Song you sang last: I just sang along to Namie Amuro's "Wishing On The Same Star".
T - Time you wake up: Depends.
U - Unknown fact about me: What else is there to know?
V - Vegetable you hate: Lots...I don't really like eating vegetables.
W - Worst habit: Taking out stuff then leave them around. And so the mountain grows...
X - X-rays you've had: Had a few already...which one?
Y - Yummy food: Mum's cooking.
Z - Zodiac sign: Aries
Yupz...and the topic of the day is: Do you have a favourite play equipment?
My favourite are the swings. I used to envy Sis coz she could swing herself and I had to ask Dad to push. But then, Dad taught me. I love the feeling when you swing forward and high. It feels like I could touch the sky. It's a pity that playgrounds nowadays don't have swings. Bleargh.
January 13, 2004 @ 9.35pm
cd in front of me
Cas gave me Hilary Duff's "Metamorphosis" cd!!! *screams* It's sitting right in front of me now. It's really a pleasant surprise. I think no one else has ever given me a present just like that *as far as my memory goes*. But awww...Cas, you really shouldn't have. I still feel you could have kept the money for yourself. To think that after so long, you finally got enough money to spend on yourself. Anyway...thanks!!! *big hugz*It's scary. Cas just went on a mini shopping spree. She bought 3 tops at one go from U2. We had dinner at Mos burger.
I'm feeling much better. I still ache all over and feel tired but at least my emotion meter has gone up. I think I might have scared you guys a bit back there. Nahz...it happens. When I don't get enough sleep, I snap at people. When I'm tired...really tired and I'm not allowed to sleep, that's when my emotion meter goes down really fast. That's when I feel like crying. It has happened before when I was working. Thanks for all your concern. I'm really fine.
January 13, 2004 @ 1.54pm
emotion dip
It's a wonder how my mood can change so fast. Luckily James decided to have lunch with me. Or else... Anyway, it's a friend's presence that I feel better.I don't need pity. I don't need anyone to think that I want pity. Neither am I acting like this for pity. I am not acting. I really feel like that. I need my thinking place. I feel like crying.
Came down from STMD tutorial. They all have eaten. For a minute, I really wanted to cry. I feel all wrong. Went to the toilet. Decided that it's not good. Too busy. I don't want to cry in front of everybody. Like I said, I don't need people to think that I want pity.
That same loneliness feeling. I'm stuck in a busy street.
January 13, 2004 @ 9.29am
leaving without looking back
One day, we'll all leave this earth. It's just a matter of when.Just a little background information before I begin. I used to be looked after by this aunty since both my parents are working. It was only when I went to Secondary school that I stopped going to her home. You could say that that was my second home.
Aunty called yesterday. Bad news came along with that phonecall. Apparently, uncle's not feeling well. He might be dying soon. He actually almost passed away a few days ago, but was revived by the doctors. And now he's in pain. Aunty said he would yell coz there's so many tubes sticking out of him...pain and feeling uncomfortable.
Perhaps letting him die is the best way to relieve his agony. I would miss him. How he used to teach Sis and I how to draw fishes. How he used to make paper goblets out of the cigerette packet paper. How he used to buy kopi-o for us...Sis and I would share one cup. How he showed us how to burn red ants with his cigerette. How he taught me to play black jack...complete with the hokkien terms. How he showed me how to sharpen pencils with a knife. Many many more.
I'm not sad. I won't cry. There's nothing to be sad about. I believe that he will go to a better place. A beautiful place. Mum taught me that.
When Aunty Dora passed away when I was 5, I saw grandma crying. So I innocently asked Mum why. Mum told me that Aunty Dora was not coming back. She's going to a faraway place. Mum made it sound so beautiful and calming. And I believe it is.
Enough about dying. I got only a few hours of sleep. Had to come to school at 7am to continue filming. I'll probably be falling asleep in the lectures later. Congratulate me now. My legs ache. My body aches. Whoopeedoo.
January 12, 2004 @ 11.34pm
things rushing by
I'm glad I just came out of a hot bath. Face oily. Hair greasy. Tee soaked in perspiration. The stink. The blank stare. The dragging of feet. I feel like I'm a horror.This is going to be a bit long as I think of what I'm going to say. My brain's crawling. Blank stare.
If that's what you call self-reflection, then I just spent a few good moments sitting on the toilet floor doing just that. Well, that's about the only place I can do that. It's my thinking place after all.
I don't know how that came out of me. But I just made myself sound like a pitycase when I sms-ed Raynor. I'm not trying to force anyone to have a meal with me. I do understand that you all feel just as tired or have family commitments too. And I do realise I might sound really selfish.
I feel that spending time with friends after a tiring day keeps me happy. It helps me unwind. It helps me cope with reality and not let myself get lost in my own thoughts. It's like how Sis describes...the presence is comforting.
I managed to get dinner at around 9.30pm. At the Mac opposite school. Met Cas. Initially she apologised to say that she was eating at home coz her mum cooked her share. Then she sms-ed to say that she'll meet me after all.
After filming for a solid 3 hours plus, I feel like I'm about to drop dead. Walking back and forth. Trying to keep up with the guys...my group mates. Somehow, guys don't realise that they can walk damn fast. I think we almost covered the whole of the TP campus. And in that whole time, we only got 7 minutes worth of footage. Minus all the problems we'll occur later. We'll even be meeting at 7am tomorrow to continue.
While walking to meet Cas, I felt that same loneliness creep up again. The one that makes me feel like I'm standing still in a crowd. Standing still in a busy street. All around me, people rush by. They don't stop. They bump into me but they still don't stop. That's the feeling. The chill. I drag my feet.
I realise I'm very hungry. Burger, small packet of fries, coke, apple pie. All to fill my tummy.
I realised another thing when I was getting out of the toilet. I happened to hear loud voices. It was actually from the tv but I froze for a minute. I was actually trying to figure out if it was quarelling. Whether anyone was crying. I get very scared when these things happen in my house. I'm even more afraid when Sis gets her depression bouts. The feeling that I can't do anything but only to cry. Luckily it was nothing but the tv...
I hope you all read this with an open mind. I know I'm not expressing all this very well. But if you understand what I'm saying. I don't people to get all upset and angry over it. It's the last thing I'll wish to see. I just don't like to see my friends unhappy. In any case, I'll rather I bear the unhappiness and see you all look happy with smiles on your faces. Your smiles make me smile too.
January 12, 2004 @ 8.07am
emily bites
[edited at 12.45pm]I'm feeling much better now. After STMD lab. Lee Leong's funny comments. Louis fooling around with our action figure. And playing with the web cam. It's addictive filming yourself. Oh my...I'm becoming like Nad. Ahh...I've gotten Nadine-itis.
And it's confirmed. Design school western food is way more yummy than Business school western food. Right down to the sauce.
I'm tired...really I am.
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If you're wondering what's the title about...well, that's coz I'm wearing an Emily Strange tee. And I feel like crap. Haven't had enough sleep. Lousy mood. I bite. I roar. I snap. Beware.
January 12, 2004 @ 2.38am
some last minute things
I've finally completed the question for ADID presentation.Some last minute things...I put up the links to my wishlist and gifts. It's under the personal group of links.
And the wallpaper update. Decided on Yuna from Final Fantasy X. Did you know she has odd coloured eyes? One blue and one green. I found out after watching the mtv in Per's house. Winamp skin is Morning Musume from "Do it! Now".
Okie...off to sleep. I'm dead tired and I have a 8am class tomorrow...or rather today. Plus filming. I don't know how I'll survive.
January 11, 2004 @ 11.35pm
action figure
Instead of sleeping in, I spent my Sunday morning in school. Met up with my group mates for discussion before the filming tomorrow. And we spent a good one hour trying to decide on our action figure. -_-||| At least got some ideas down already.After 3 hours, discussion ended. I don't think I'll get much sleep tomorrow.
The weather hasn't been very good. Raining all the while. It'll rain, stop, then rain again. A lot of people crying I think? It's just one of my weird theories.
Met Cas, Raynor and Shaz for a movie. School of Rock. That movie is cool manz! It rocks!
Had dinner at TM Mac. McPepper burger's back! Actually it's back for quite some time but didn't actually get to eat it till today. I still remember the first time they introduced the burger, without fail, every mac visit I'll be eating that. I don't care if I tear from eating it. I can't tahan spicy food. Black pepper is the only spicy thing that I will tahan no matter what.
We chilled for awhile in BK. I was reading there. Yes! I'm down to the last chapter of "Xi Jie Shao Nian". And yes...I do read chinese books. This is not the first chinese book I've read...so no need to get so excited over it.
After which, they came over to my place coz I needed Raynor to fix the problem with the FTP program. They just left not long.
Thanks for sharing your views in the last entry. It's interesting knowing each person's preference in the slightest things.
All righty...gotta go prepare for my ADID presentation. I don't really know how to do it...*wails*
January 10, 2004 @ 9.53pm
bus rides
IN3D lab this morning. First make-up lesson for the semester. And it's only the first week. But not too bad. IN3D is tough but interesting. Something different from the usual programming and words.And for that, I had to miss the JCG subcomm meeting. I'm supposed to fix a date for the drama screening.
Raynor and Da ge waited for me so we could have lunch together. Lunch at pasta mania. Oh...Mabelline's working there. Didn't know. And she was so sweet. She gave me 20% staff discount. I'm not saying she's sweet coz she gave me a discount. By right, that shouldn't be the case. It's coz although we're school mates, I never talk to her. We just smile at each other.
Walked around for awhile. Then Da ge felt tired. So we all went home. I had a nap.
Met Cas for dinner. Luckily she asked. Coz I'm supposed to go with Mum to her church friend's house. She asked me this morning whether I had dinner plans. I didn't want to go so I just said yes I have plans when actually I didn't.
Dinner at TM Mac. I got the monkey. It's cute! Got dinner for Sis then walked back home.
I'm glad to hear that Cas is better now. So worried for her.
I feel like watching a movie. Perhaps tomorrow? Just that we are supposed to have a group discussion tomorrow but they haven't confirmed the time to meet. And I haven't started working on the storyboard. Bleargh.
I realise that there isn't a particular topic to talk about. It's getting quite boring right? Just reading what I do everyday. Haha...so I shall start with one.
*sings* It's the topic of the dayyyyyyyy...
Do you have a particular seat that you like to sit in on the bus?
For me, I like to sit near the window. Double decker buses...I like sitting upstairs...still the window seat. I like to look at the things moving by. It's like watching the world go by. I love looking at the clouds. It's a nice feeling. It's also good when you have things on your mind. Then you feel like the bus is taking you somewhere...a place to make you feel better.
January 9, 2004 @ 11.04pm
specs or contacts
Need some opinions here. Specs or contacts? Keeping in mind that I don't have a lot of money so getting both is absolutely out of the question. And Mum isn't going to sponsor. Actually which is cheaper?Second thing...I'm thinking of adding music here. It's been a long time since my blog had music. Getting a bit cold. Can't decide between Lene Marlin's "Unforgivable Sinner" and Standfast's "Car Crashes". Both are quite outdated songs...but they are nice! Oh ya...Raynor, am I allowed to upload mp3s? Don't want to get you into trouble or anything. You know how the whole piracy thing goes.
I had dinner with Sis and Cas. Actually Sis came to look for me coz she forgot to bring out her keys. Anyway, we ended up having dinner together. While waiting for Cas, met Douglas. It was good chatting with him. He's a good lecturer to talk to. Somehow ang mohs are more patient and are able to accept different reasonings with an open mind. It's also good exchanging and learning about different cultures.
I conclude that the area near the basketball court in the park near where I live is marked off as the danger zone. Today, a soccer ball flew past again. Luckily I was alert and had a sixth sense that the ball would come flying past. Cas are you ok? If you keep feeling giddy then I suggest you better go see a doctor. After which, we can go demand those guys to pay your medical bills. *grrr* Nahz kidding...
I have IN3D lab tomorrow. The make-up lesson for Chinese New Year.
January 9, 2004 @ 10.13am
free tan
[edited at 2.50pm]See...I told you I was bored. Now you believe me?
I can't believe this. I just had a very lonely lunch. Well, the lab I was in just now has class at 2pm. So I gotta scram from there. And I walked out. Mind blank. Walking aimlessly.
Ooh...and I found myself walking to the Design school canteen. I was hungry anyway. I think I hate eating alone. Makes me feel so pathetic. Hmph...never mind...I got strawberry mentos to console myself.
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This is what happens when I'm bored. I update my blog numerous times.
Don't know how I will survive the 2 hours of break alone. The break is not even long enough to go home to sleep. Da ge is having his project discussion. Cas has gone home coz she doesn't have any class. The guys and Xiu Wei have class. I'm absolutely bored.
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It's just a matter of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Oh yes...I came to school for HR management tutorial and lecture at Business school. And what? They had to have a fire drill. Which means that there's no lessons for business school until 12pm. Which also means I came to school early for nothing.
We had to go to the basketball court. I got a free tan for awhile. So next time, you people want free tans, make sure your school holds more fire drills then you can bake in the hot sun. It reminds me of secondary school. The only difference is you can stroll down in poly. You try strolling down in secondary school...and you'll be made to do the whole fire drill thingy for a few times.
So now I'm free till 11am. Comm skills. Bleargh. Damn kuku-nated...
Is it me or do I find my English deteriorating? I find myself punctuating or starting my sentences with lahs, lors, mehs and what-have-yous more often these days. Or as Mrs Linda Teo used to refer them as "animal noises". Noooooo...this cannot happen.
January 8, 2004 @ 10.02pm
big bangs
Our sushi date was GREAAAATTTT! Since Per had to take some time travelling back to the east, we walked around TM first. Me, Cas, Raynor, Kelvin, Wei Ming and Shaz.3.15pm...travelled to Simei. Shaz left us. Met Per. Sakae sushi...here we come! Sushi buffet. I didn't like the waitress...THAT AUNTY. She was quite irritating. *rolls eyes*
Walked around Eastpoint. Then Wei Ming and Kelvin left. The rest of us took the MRT back to Tampines.
Sat at Mac. I needed a drink. Cas went to buy her handphone. Pretty! White coloured handphone...so cool...stylo milo. Wrote more stuff in Per's organiser. This is getting addictive. Amanda Tang met us for awhile. She was having a break from her job at Esprit.
Got a little hungry. Yes...again. Feel like I'm a pig manz. I should be like losing weight when I get back to school coz of the stress. But instead, I feel like I'm gaining weight. Maybe coz during the holidays, I don't eat lunch unless someone asks me out for lunch.
While walking home, passed by the danger zone at the park. This time Cas tio. Those guys playing soccer lahz. Wah...the ball flew across and hit Cas.
Is 2004 a year for injuries. First Per knocked her head...then she sprained her ankle. Now Cas... Oh yea...big bangs for the new year. *sarcastic* How wonderful.
I have this urge to clear leave already. BAD...coz it's like only the first week of school. Aiyah...coz my weekend for this week is gone. Need to meet up with group mates to finalise the storyboard for filming on Monday. Need to prepare the ADID lab presentation. Got JCG subcomm meeting some more. *pengz*
Really should get something done now. But I'm feeling really tired. Even after a nice hot bath. It's the kind of tired where I don't think I can really think straight. And if I do homework, I will probably be writing rubbish and then liquid-ing every darn thing.
That reminds me of last time. How I used to fall asleep while doing homework. Aiyoh...there was one time I was doing my chinese tuition homework. And I fell asleep. Suddenly, I thought I heard Mum yelling at me so I tio cuak and woke up with a start. Darn...it was only a dream...but it felt so real.
I don't know whether I should go out tomorrow. 7ners meeting for movie. Sis asking me whether I want to go to ktv. I feel I should be doing homework. Maybe just meet Cas for dinner then go home. Sorry lahz. My brain can't think now.
Eyebags ah eyebags. *wails*
January 8, 2004 @ 11.43am
sushi date
Yay! Sushi date today! Left a few hours nia. I'm excited...don't ask...I don't know why either. Maybe coz Per is joining us. PER!!! Lovable Per! Wahahahaha...I think ADID is doomed. I have no idea what that subject is all about. It's practically just throwing you into the pool and you choose whether you sink or swim.
Lalalalalala...muahahahahaha...
January 7, 2004 @ 10.24pm
going through the mountains
Argh! I'm so pissed off with myself. I can't find the cd with the lightwave program. I know I'm untidy. But it's gotta be SOMEWHERE! *stamps feet* Under the mountains of stuff. *crossed...frown frown frown* Can I throw a tantrum? Argh! *super frown*Ok ok...cool down...I'll go on a major hunt later.
The only good thing about today is that I can wake up later coz class starts at 3pm.
IN3D lab was cool. But it's tough. I can't help thinking how tough it is for professionals to come up with 3D animations. Already creating a table with some basic shaped stuff took like 3 hours for me to complete. Wait a minute...it's not even complete...no doughnuts and oranges yet. And my eyes were like pain after focusing for 3 hours. Oh and Mr Shaw completed that whole table thingy in a few minutes. Sayless...
Met Cas for dinner. Dinner at Pasta Mania. Her choice. I was so hungry anyway. After dinner, we walked around. She got some stuff.
Tomorrow's the sushi date. I hope Per can make it...*cross fingers*
Thanks for all the compliments. I see some people asking whether I took that photo myself. Yes. It was taken when I was holidaying in Australia. We stayed in this bed and breakfast cottage. I happened to lie on the bed and look at the pretty curtains. Then I realised how the sunlight came through the blinds and made pretty patterns on the curtains.
January 6, 2004 @ 4.21pm
did you change the channel?
[edited at 10.17pm]I'm so tired. I feel like all the energy has been zapped up. And I even had a 2 hour nap! I wonder how I'm going to work on the ADID question for the lab presentation. I'm supposed to be ready with the answer by tomorrow coz I'll be meeting my group mates to compile everything. But how? My brain feels like it's running on a 56K modem.
I finally took the third option coz they weren't eating out. Mum bought okonomiyaki. Oishii!
I realise my mind goes running wild when I'm alone. The hundreds of possibilities that make me seem so pitiful. Which in perfect sense is pretty disgusting. Self pity is no pity at all. But I do have hundreds of questions for myself, for God, for him and for everyone else. How do I stop my mind from thinking at all?
The comments box is up. You can "hug" me now. Haha.
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And I'm back! No more classes for today. Just went through a ultra boring ADID lecture and HR Management lecture. Ling caught me dozing off in ADID lecture. So she decided to keep me awake by drawing and then playing 2 rounds of tic-tac-toe.
HR Management...boy oh boy...so we're going to tackle this subject using PBL (Problem Based Learning). God bless me. On the flip side, I guess using this method will make me use my brains more, jolt them out of the slacker mode and not let them just rot. And it will probably help when I go out into the so-called real world.
I was such a goonz this morning. I kept thinking that I had a 9am class. So I woke up at 8am...only to discover I had woken up a whole hour earlier. Class only starts at 10am on Tuesdays. Yea...go ahead and laugh.
But I did spend the time wisely. Managed to figure out a little more on my new blog layout. Printed out some notes. Then rush rush rush. Off to school.
STMD is going to be tough but fun I guess. There's no term test or exam for this subject. Our grades solely come from projects. And our first project would be filming. Quite exciting. This is my first time doing filming. But the hours...we collect the video cam on 12 January 5pm and have to return it the next day at 9am?! And the theme requires to do filming in the day. I guess I won't be getting sleep on that day. God bless me again.
We have spilled to the business school territory. Since our canteen is under renovation. We are now being forced to walk out of IT school in search for food. Don't even think about the mobile canteen...bleargh.
I'm feeling so guilty after yesterday. To think that I didn't even get much scolding from Mum. My conscience was like pricking me all over. I would have felt better if she had screamed blardee murder at me. I feel like I'm such a bad girl. I don't think I can ever make it as a rebel. It's just not me. *sigh*
Now...I wonder what to do next? Whether to wait in school for them then go for dinner? Or just go home and sleep and then meet them for dinner? Or just rot at home and wait for Mum to buy me dinner. Eeny meeny miiny mo...
January 6, 2004 @ 1.51pm
mic test 1, 2, 3
Heh hey. Just testing out whether this works. After working on this for 3 days. It's more or less done. *phew* A little proud of myself. Yupz...should do what Douglas say. Take a good hard look at myself in the mirror and say I can do it.Hee...but not exactly. Took a peek at other people's source code. I don't know how but I seem to understand it better like that. Hope those people aren't mad at me.
Aiyaiyai...10 minutes more to the boring lecture. I've got more stuff to blog about but I think I'll have to do that later at night. Don't change the channel...coz I'll be back...
Muahahahahahaha...
