April 24, 2004 @ 8.44pm
leaving on a jet plane
Thought of disappearing without saying anything. I had my reasons for thinking like that. But then, it'll be too irresponsible to some people.The long awaited rest/holiday. Our flight to Osaka, Japan is around midnight. Will be back on 5th May. *To Xianglin* Sorry babe, I'll be missing your birthday. Here's wishing you a super duper fun-filled birthday. Happy *early* Birthday! *hugz* *pops those party poppers*
I'll still be blogging...on paper. Unless I find some source of internet access then I'll blog here. Same as before. Yea...you guys should know what I mean.
Sis is a little upset coz horrors of all horrors, someone took her Shin cd by mistake during the autograph session. The one she got now is empty. NO CD AND VCD. So it's like she gave her cd away.
Thanks to Geraldine who's helping me tape "Xun Qin Ji" while I'm away. Thanks to Xiu Wei who's helping me with the minor stuff.
April 24, 2004 @ 1.25am
shin
Accompanied Sis to Shin's autograph session at PS. There's a song from their new album that's nice. It's "Tian Liang Yi Hou Shuo Fen Shou".Had dinner at Hisatomo. Then went down to Mise S*Clusive to collect my Arashi calendar.
I don't think I was successful for OSIP. Coz Kenneth was asking me whether I got a call from school coz Louis got a call already. I guess no call = unsuccessful. Louis was successful for Australia. Oh well, that's fine. Congrats to him. :)
There's a mystery that needs to be solved. Sis told me she met one of my primary school friends at NYDC. Read from Shermeen's blog...seems like she's working there. But Sis said it's not Shermeen. This girl has short hair. Trying to think of someone who has short hair, is from SAC primary and is someone whom Sis doesn't know. Joanna? But she's schooling... Minyu? But she's from CHIJ primary... Wonder who's that person.
April 24, 2004 @ 12.19am
for starters
Gotta rush. Need to bathe. So for starters, here's a quizzie from Cas's blog.1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
Let me see...no book around. Oh wait...there's one. "Dogbert's Top Secret Management Handbook". WHAT! There are no page numbers. *manually counts to page 18* Line 4: "Send employees to find more data".
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
My cd case.
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Ermz...that's gotta be last night. Cheena news.
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is.
1am
5: Now look at the clock, what time is it?
12.09am
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The whirring from the fan.
7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I just came home. Stepped out at around 5.30pm. Went to PS with Sis for Shin's autograph session.
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
My blog.
9: What are you wearing?
Yellow OP tee and cargo pants.
10: Did you dream last night?
Yea, I did but can't recall what already.
11: When did you last laugh?
Can't recall.
12: What are on the walls of the room you are in?
Paint. Haha. Ok ok...there's an Ayu poster in front of me.
13: Seen anything weird lately?
Don't think so.
14: What do you think of this quiz?
Hmmm...quizzies are fun. *lol*
15: What is the last film you saw?
The Prince And Me
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
No idea.
17: Tell me something about you that I don't know?
What don't you know?
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Change whatever that is. And that would be less suffering and less tears in this world.
19: Do you like to dance?
Ok. But I dance horribly. Haha.
20: George Bush
Yes, and what about him?
21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Maybe continue the whole "E" thing. But then, "Unity" and "Laurel" are nice girl names.
21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Heh...no idea.
April 23, 2004 @ 1.20am
no more
Haven't been doing regular blog reading or blogging itself. Coz of the exams. But now...*deep breath* *screams* IT'S OVERRRRRRR!!!Rather quick. Afterall, the semester's shortened. And I'm done with year 2. Changes here and there. Some good, some bad. But that's how life is. You get the good and the bad. Acceptance is all it takes.
I must be one of those dolts to believe that I can't get to my archived entries at Upsaid. Coz my old blog is still running and there's a link to the archived entries. Except for the closed entries though. I'm wondering whether to save up everything or just let it all go. The former coz it's like a diary, a part of me. To let it all go seems a waste. The latter coz things there are all in the past now. To let it go means to let the bad times go as well.
Did some travelling today. Marina Square. Shin. I promised Sis I'll help her take photos since she can't make it coz of her exam. Got a poster autographed for her as well. I was thinking how stupid she is. She should have passed me her cd so I could help her get it autographed as well. Hmmm...actually, I should get paid for doing this.
Next stop, Orchard. Went to Cine to get some Qoo stuff. Kawaii Qoo Town. Managed to get a small plush and a tote bag for Sis and PJs and a denim cosmetics pouch for myself. Ermz...the PJs are too big for me though. Told Sis she could have it if she wanted. I wanted to get the travel bag actually...but it's sold out. Well, that's how my 8 Qoo bottle labels and some money went.
I think I need some sleep. Got a headache. To end off, here's something from Ling's blog.
FIRST
First girl best friend: Sarah Xie
First guy best friend: Cheng Huat
First date: WHAT?
First break up: No relationship...no break up...
First self purchased album: No idea.
First Funeral: Aunty Dora's
First pets: Fishy fishy fishy
First piercing/tattoos: Ears...in Sec 3.
First enemy: Don't have any...at least I don't consider anyone an enemy.
First play/musical/performance: Watched? Hmmm...Oliver Twist.
CURRENT
Current girl best friend: Xianglin
Current guy best friend: Non-existant
Current marital status: Single
Current song playing: R&B's "Jie Li Sai"
Current thoughts: Yea...exams over finally.
Current emotions: Like that lorz.
Current status online: Online
Current fav person: Ayumi Hamasaki
Current wonder: How things can change so fast. How people can turn away so fast.
Current instrument played: None
Current need: I don't even know anymore whether it's a need or it's just a dream.
LAST
Last cigarette: No cigarettes for me, thank you very much.
Last kiss: A long time ago...from mummy dear.
Last good cry: Yonks ago. Still wanna experience one out of sheer disappointment. I'm weird.
Last movie seen: The Prince And Me
Last beverage drank: Water
Last food consumed: Steamboat
Last crush: ...
Last phone call: Mum
Last tv showed: Cheena news
Last time showered: An hour ago.
Last shoes worn: Converse shoes
Last Cd Played: Playing one now. R&B's "Lucky 7"
Last item bought: Food
Last annoyance: Can't recall.
Last icecream eaten: Mac's Choco Mint McFlurry
Last time wanting to die: Don't know. The feeling just comes and goes. Sometimes wanna get knocked down. Sometimes wanna plunge a few floors down...perhaps I'll gain my wings to fly.
Last shirt worn: Tee. Wearing one now. A Quicksilver one that's a little oversized.
Last website visit: Ling's blog where I got this quizzie from.
April 20, 2004 @ 11.10pm
nicoll highway is falling down
[edited at 2.10am]I'm hungry. I'm tired. I think I'll go sleep with that growling stomach of mine. Sounds like thunder. Haha. Brain can't think anymore. Lights out...bye...
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I guess everyone should know by now that Nicoll Highway collapsed. So I won't elaborate on it. Nad has done a semi-fantastic job of spreading the news already. Check out her blog for more details. ^_^
I asked Dad whether he heard anything since his office is near Nicoll Highway. He said everyone in his office were looking through binoculars to look at the collapsed highway. Yes...that kinda reminds me how Dogbert's management book is not talking rot after all. See what managers do in their office... -_-|||
But anyway, I didn't think about it until Dad mentioned. He said luckily it happened before everyone knocks off from work. He added that sometimes he takes that route back home from work. Thank God. Thank God it also happened when there weren't any cars on the highway. We can only pray now that they'll find the 3 missing people and hope they are still alive.
Day 2 of my exams. HR MGT paper wasn't too bad. Except I spent a tad too much time for the front parts that I had to rush through the back and didn't really finish the paper. Oh well. Today's paper was the killer paper. ORDS. I'm praying that I can pass it. Don't even know whether I did ok for the lab test and project coz Mrs Ho didn't reply my email. Even Xiu Wei agreed that ORDS is the only subject that we can't tell for sure whether we can make it or not. *Although I'm sure she can coz she's really hardworking...she's just being paranoid*
Last paper tomorrow. ADID. No mood to study. But still must.
I feel like changing my blog layout again. Haha...coz I've already got something new in mind. But I don't think I'll change it so soon. Otherwise, I feel that Nad's effort of drawing the girlies will be wasted. Hee...
Also did a minor change...you don't hear the music play anymore. Put it on stop mode by default. Cas's suggestion. Hmmm...guess it's starting to get a little irritating. Heh...I confess I do that too when I visit my own blog. As in click the "stop" button immediately. But sometimes it's nice to hear music playing in the background. Although not always.
Yea! I'm in RBJ!
Lips still super dry. Argh. No matter how much water I drink or how much lip balm I use. Grrr...stupid weather.
April 18, 2004 @ 11.48pm
management lessons
Was looking for some books in Orchard library for HR MGT yesterday. Found this management book that's totally hilarious. Yea...it does talk about management issues but I don't think it's that detailed. Anyway, borrowed it just for reading pleasure. It's "Dogbert's Top Secret Management Handbook".Quotes from book...
"TIP: If your employees were capable of generating any nuggets of wisdom, they wouldn't be working for you."
"If you're part of a meeting that's scheduled for sixty minutes, feel free to use it all. And remember: Agendas are suggestions, not rules. And rules were made to be broken; therefore, suggestions are made to be ignored."
"OBJECTIVES FOR MEETINGS: 1) Clear your desk by assigning tasks to the powerless dolts trapped in the meeting."
Talking about technology, as stated in the book, as a manager, you need not know the technical stuff coz you pay the "little people" to do that for you. But you do need to know a few key technical concepts like "4) Ethernet will not make you lose conciousness, even if you sniff a broken cable." That statement must be meant for people who think that ethernet has something to do with ethanol. *rofl*
Ok...better stop fooling around and continue studying.
April 17, 2004 @ 12.00am
IN3D project
Yep. I'm done with all my projects. For the past 3 days, slept at odd hours. Not 3am then 5am. Spent the time rendering for my 3D animation. Glad it's over. For a last minute queen, I'll say this is good.Haha...you should have seen. While I waited for the scenes to be rendered, I took toilet breaks, water breaks or lying down breaks. Rendered a few scenes for Mr Shaw's inspection on Wednesday. Only to need to re-do them all over again coz the trees weren't exactly sitting on the ground and the words on the banner couldn't be seen clearly.
The funniest moment was when I rendered the scene of the puny snail rolling. My first try ended up with a shell rolling in the air!
Few screen captures of my project. Note: the pictures have been resized so that they consume less space.
Opening shot. Didn't want to put my name coz it'll sound too plain. Needed a company name...so hehe...
The 3 snail-ies. 2 big bad ones and a puny one. Don't think it's damn easy to model these snails. I had to get Mr Shaw to help me countless times. Especially the shell...the swirl.
Closer shot of the snail. This is Mr Referee Snail.
Puny snail rolling away...
Yes...the big bad snails are watching in shock and horror as puny snail rolls to the finish line to claim the trophy.
And if you still don't get the idea of my story, it's supposed to be a snail race *DUH*. Being a small and slow snail does not mean it cannot win the race. Just using your brains alone can make you the fastest snail.
Thank you. Thank you. *bows* 3D modelling is fun but tough at the same time. I don't regret taking up this elective.
Tomorrow gotta go to school to submit the project. Coz I rushed to submit it just now but didn't realise I have to hand it in with the proposal and sketches. Plus I didn't burn the rendering scenes in it. -_-|||
Keep drinking water but my lips are still very dry. It's gotta be the weather.
April 15, 2004 @ 7.53pm
hot weather
[edited at 9.01pm]Upsaid is charging. No more free accounts. I can't even get to my archives page in Upsaid to retrieve my past entries. Crapz.
[edited]
Yea...the weather's going crazy. So hot! I've been drinking water but my lips are still dry.
It's weird looking at only one handphone accessory dangling from my handphone. Left only the A-sign. The other was the Ayu one...which could flip round. Unfortunately, on Tuesday, the screw came loose and the thingy fell off. It happened when I was walking back to the lab. Suddenly saw the ring empty. Shit. So went out to look for the Ayu thingy. Found it just outside the lab door. Couldn't find the screw. This is the second time the thing fell off. Luckily the first time it happened, I was holding it, so the thing fell on my palm.
*wails* That was my last year's b'day prez from the poly gang. My first b'day prez from my poly friends. *sobz*
April 13, 2004 @ 10.55am
mr pink hidamari no tami
Heh...I'm in love with Mr Pink Hidamari no Tami. That happy smile on his face makes me feel happy. He's now sitting right in front of me, swaying his head from side to side. I think I might buy one for Mum to put in her office too.Almost decided that Mr Shaw bluffed me. I needed help modelling my snail. Had a few questions. I emailed him to ask if he was free. He said he will come down to the lab at around 4.30pm.
Went to the lab after HR MGT lecture. Packed with people. Some even locked the computers. Waited...waited...no Mr Shaw. Called his office. No answer...only the stupid answering machine. After waiting for an hour, I decided perhaps it'll be a no-show so I left. Just stepped onto the bridge when Louis called to say he saw Mr Shaw in the opposite lab, the one for SIP students.
Walked back. Waited again. Finally...Mr Shaw came and I immediately went "Sir!" for fear that someone else might catch his attention first and I gotta wait all over again. Rajes's friend was nice to lend me the computer she was using. Mr Shaw helped me out with my snail.
Woot. I think most of the stuff is modelled by Mr Shaw. Except for the objects in the background. He's really very helpful and patient. Except he does things a little too fast. He's familiar with the short cut keys. He can control everything when bevelling. In a few minutes, the stuff you're not sure about is done. The whole time, your eyes would be fixed to the magic that's working out on the screen and not paying attention to the buttons he clicked on. So when he goes "you understand what I'm doing?" You'll be like "huh? *wow and lost already*".
Stopped by Xiu Wei's house. Coz I saw Kenneth using Adobe Premiere to combine the quicktime movie clips and suddenly realised I might need to do that too and my cd is with Raynor. Luckily I burnt a copy for Xiu Wei before.
She invited me to have dinner with her. Her mum's cooking. Didn't refuse coz she's all alone at home. It's a little dreary sometimes to come home to an empty house almost everyday, having to eat dinner by yourself. Next time you need company for dinner, can call me ok? Ermz...or better not...wait I become a freeloader. Hee...
Ate. Watched tv. Discussed school stuff...STMD, SIP... She showed me some photos. Yea...
And thanks to Ling for the prezzie. A nice tee. :)
April 12, 2004 @ 12.08pm
siaoz liaoz
[edited at 11.16pm]One more project to go. I'm dying to go to sleep but can't. Body really aching. Keep thinking of the project. Need to at least do a little to make myself feel more at ease. Haven't been drinking enough water. Lips very dry...starting to crack.
Yea...I changed the layout again. Actually that was what I had in mind when I asked Nad to draw 2 girlies for me. One special one for my birthday *that's why the girlie is holding a balloon*, another for normal. With that, I changed the song too. It was the song I was talking about about a month ago.
Yupz, changed my wallpaper too. The previous one was special too. If you looked closely, Ayu was sitting on a table with balloons all around and a cake with candles on the table.
This time round is her "Fly High" single cover. Somehow, I look at the way she's positioned, I relate that position to an unborned baby. The half crouching position I guess. The hands lifted up a little as if to shield oneself.
All babies are borned into this world with their innocent eyes still "unopened" to the truth in this world. Perhaps it is their only way to shield themselves, to protect themselves thus believing the world is one good world. Sometimes ignorance is bliss. Then perhaps there will be less sadness...less tears.
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Feng le! Zhen de feng le! *shakes head*
I only managed to catch about an hour's sleep. Whole Sunday spent working on the STMD project. Coding...getting errors...feeling all irritated...start snapping at anybody that asks me any question *I'm trying to concentrate duh!*. Think about it, I do feel a little bad about snapping at Mum. Although she understands coz of the project...but still...that's not good.
Finished all the coding around midnight. Printed the codes. Started on the report at around 1am. Thought it'll take only about an hour. Boy, was I wrong. I spent the next 3-4 hours on it. By the time I could declare STMD project done, it was around 5am. Decided to figure out ADID next. Had to figure out the Flash Actionscript for the XML and stuff.
Felt like dropping dead around 6am. Brain was slowing down. Couldn't think. So around 7.45am, stopped to catch a little rest.
So now, STMD project has been marked. Alleluia...that's one down, 2 more to go. ADID project will be handed in later. So left with IN3D which is also hardly done. The above will be my schedule for the next 2 days till after Wednesday, 5pm. By then, I think I'll be super zombified and cranky. So no one...repeat NO ONE will stop me from sleeping all I want then. I will NOT entertain any sms-es when I'm sleeping too unless it's urgent. So don't sms unless it's urgent or you're itching for a major yelling session from cranky me.
Thanks for all the lovely birthday wishes. All those who tagged on the tagboard. Pwen's friend, Mishie who took the effort to click on a link and left a tag. Really appreciate it. :)
Thanks to 7ners and Xianglin who went all out to let me enjoy my birthday. Although some of the hurt cannot be erased but thanks for standing by me and truly understanding me. It's comforting to know that you guys always look past my flaws and appreciate me for who I am, finding the real me inside me.
PS: Xianglin, I haven't started playing with my friend...hehe...although he's sitting on my dressing table, I haven't switched him on. *referring to Mr Pink Hidamari no Tami*
April 10, 2004 @ 11.44pm
celebration
Went to school for ORDS make-up tutorial and lab in the morning. Seems like everyone didn't sleep or slept very little too. All working on their STMD project.Lab finished slightly earlier. Went home to take a nap. Waited for Sis to come home so we could all go to the restaurant together.
Celebrated my birthday with the family.
Went home. Took a really short nap. Woke up to go meet everyone at the MRT station. Wasn't feeling that great. I know that you're not supposed to cry on your birthday coz it's not lucky or whatever. But at that moment, I felt like shit.
7ners only... Xianglin joined us after that. CJ wasn't there coz she's in Melbourne. Sof got me a bracelet. The rest got me a girly skirt and earrings. Xianglin got me a new friend...a pink Hidamari no Tami! But really...it wasn't all about the presents, it was the company. Thanks guys!
And it's confirmed. The sms about Mr Quah wasn't a joke. Let's continue praying for him.
About my new layout. The Japanese words read "Baka no Onna" which means "Stupid/Idiot Girl". Something which Sis sometimes call me as a joke. But sometimes I feel I am a little stupid. Hmmm...although there's a little mistake in my hiragana. Sis says "baka" should have a small "tsu"...which means it should be spelt "bakka". But usually people spell it as "baka" so I'm not sure.
Celebration's over. Back to digging my grave.
April 10, 2004 @ 12.05am
goodbye 18, welcome 19
[edited at 3.53am]Ask me why I'm still up at this hour. No, so not partying. I'm doing my STMD project. Just managed to get the login page to work...like after almost 3 hours! *wails* And that's not the most important parts. -_-||| *ties cloth with the word "ganbatte" around my forehead*
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*to myself* Happy 19th Birthday, me. *pat pat*
And it doesn't change anything does it? Still the same ol' me. The slacker who enjoys digging her own grave. *rolls eyes* Yes, I'm hardly even halfway done for STMD or ADID which are both due on Monday.
Plus, I get a big fat "present" from TP. ORDS make-up tutorial and lab.
Now, I understand why Pwen wants to be forever 18 as stated on her blog...
Yes, the layout's changed. Thanks to Nad for drawing the girlie. Now, you know when the layout's up. *winks* Song's changed. Namie Amuro's "Sweet 19 Blues". She sang that when she was 19. Now, I put it on my blog when I'm 19.
Just came home not long from watching a movie. My present from Sis and Desmond. We watched "The Prince and Me". :) Yay!
April 08, 2004 @ 11.45pm
pengz
I think I am very disappointed with my HR MGT group. Thought that the girls would be better than the guys. Joker #1 and #2...really given up hope on them. One of the girls was to compile the report...Joker #3. She did exactly what Joker #1 did. Just slot in whatever we gave her.Like that, I would rather I do everything myself. And she met me at the last minute so I couldn't do anything except remain calm and just hand in the shoddy work. Xiu Wei said maybe coz we didn't send her the softcopy. Come on manz...if you need it, you could ask. If you need help, you could ask. And I kept sms-ing you to tell you to send it to me so I can look through and make any changes. It's not like I didn't care or what. But no...you decide not to reply me or bother to re-send the report to me.
Joker #2 didn't even hand in anything except that lousy piece of flow chart which doesn't help much.
I know I'm a slacker. I do things last minute and often don't hand in the best work. But at least I try my best to make things work. If you're going to hand in super shoddy work, then it's no different from not handing in at all.
Heart attack...heart attack...breathe.
This time, I'm really sayless.
Had dinner with the group. Cas, Xiu Wei, Paul, Raynor, Da Ge, Wei Ming, Zhi Hao and Shaz. Watched a movie too. "Hellboy"...movie was so-so. Things still the same. *sigh*
April 08, 2004 @ 2.21am
apache decides to work
I'm a little pissed off with my HR MGT group members.Firstly, the 2 slacker guys in our group. Joker #1, told him to meet me at 3pm. Forgot to state place so sms-ed again later. 3pm...3.10pm...3.15pm...never turn up. Decided to call. What the hell...Singtel voice message. Couldn't wait. Had IN3D lab. Checked his timetable again. Saw he had class at 4pm. Went down to his lab and got his mind maps. Fine. Now I look at it, it's incomplete. He's working on "Discipline" and "Counselling". He gave me a mind map only for "Discipline".
Joker #2, didn't even give me a mind map. Gave me a flow chart instead. What the hell.
Secondly, the group member who's supposed to compile the report. I asked her to do the compiling this time coz the previous report, Joker #1 volunteered to do it. His idea of a report was to take whatever we had given him and just slot it in. So the font was different for every topic. And some pages didn't flow. Anyway, I kept sms-ing her to send me the report after she's done so I can look through it and correct anything. I don't really trust people after what Joker #1 did.
No reply. After 3 sms-es, she decided to reply today. Said she sent it to me already. Checked all my mailboxes. Didn't receive anything from her. Sms-ed her again to say I didn't receive and could she send it to my other email instead, just in case. No reply. Checked my email again at midnight. Nothing.
Is this some kind of sick joke? I mean, even if you haven't finished it, just say so. I know everyone's rushing for projects at this time. I don't like to keep sms-ing either coz it makes me feel like I'm hounding you for things.
I suddenly thought of a brilliant idea to try when I woke up this afternoon. Remember I said I couldn't install and run Apache? I decided to try it on the guest account instead. Ermz...my account has admistrator rights and is password protected. I created a guest account for any other person that uses my computer. This is especially for Dad. Coz he has a tendency to like to open files on the desktop that are not his, claiming that he didn't know when the fact is, if it's not yours then don't touch it. I'll hate to blame him if stuff goes missing...especially if it's schoolwork.
Yea...so much for the explanation. Well, tried installing it in the guest account. Guess what? IT WORKED! So, I'm convinced it's my computer that's cranky and is in serious need of reformatting after the semester. No wonder the NVidea guy hasn't replied on the driver. Must be still puzzling over what's wrong or has already been stumped by the problem.
But, it's a little too late. Wasted a few days already. But, better than nothing. At least now I can chiong my STMD project at home. No need to stay in school till 9pm or even "fight" for a place in the lab.
April 06, 2004 @ 10.29am
the best
[edited at 8.10pm]Got 2 similar sms-es from Zeng Zi and Xianglin yesterday. If you're an ex-sacian or sacian you'll most probably know what I'm talking about. Coz the sms was to say that Mr Quah is in ICU.
I hope this is not some kind of sick joke. Yes, I know many people dislike him coz he "tortures" us during PE or morning runs and has said pretty hurtful things before, but still... And you gotta admit you learnt to be a stronger person through the experiences you went through with him. Like how to shut that mouth of yours and zone out on people when they scold you so that the scolding ends faster and less painful.
But if the sms is true then let us all pray for him for his recovery.
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Lee Leong...you best lorz. Didn't say there is no lecture this morning. That's one extra hour of sleep lost ok.
I swear I'm not going to eat the mobile canteen's hash brown. It's swimming in oil. Don't they know how to use a paper towel to soak the oil first after deep frying?
April 05, 2004 @ 5.03pm
pessimist vs. realist
Made my first blog entry at our 7ners blog. Was saying that my b'day's this coming Saturday. At the beginning of this year, I was looking forward to it. Now, I think I've lost the enthusiastic feeling. I mean, so what if it's your b'day? People don't give a damn whether you're 18, 19 or 20. It really doesn't make a difference. Your b'day is just another day added on with all the frills.You make the effort to share the day with people. But do those people really treasure you? Only a handful do. Only a handful will remember you and bother to contact you 10 years down the road.
I do admit that there are certain things that are still bothering me. Still at the back of my mind. Perhaps I got what I wished for. To be a loner...well, to an extent. Since my presence is not needed, I do not appear. It also makes me feel much better. Why make myself feel uninvited and ignored? No, I'm not trying to direct my words at people. I'm just trying to convey my feelings. My blog, my feelings. Your blog, your feelings. Get what I mean?
I'm only looking for answers. Trying to clear any misunderstandings. Only hoping that things could go back to how they were before. Is that too much to ask for? If it is, then so be it. Life still has to go on.
*sigh* Am I being pessimistic or realistic?
PS: PK...no more picture on abortion. The entry has gone to the archives. So no more nightmares for you. *winks*
April 04, 2004 @ 1.11am
one against abortion
Got some rest.Woke up early to go for the NE forum. According to Sis, she said her CP told them that all students have to go for 3 NE talks in their poly school life. Went for 2 already. So there. Today's my third.
Rushed to CMSK2 make-up lesson. Telephone skills again. Interesting. I got paired up with "Nurse Chew" for the exercise.
Went home. Had a quick lunch then slept all the way till 7pm. A good 4 hours of sleep. :)
Went to watch a movie with Sis and Desmond. "Hidalgo". Enjoyed the movie. I wanna watch "The Prince and Me"...there's Julia Stiles in it. Yea...sucker for chick flicks.
Got some pictures of aborted babies in the email. So you think abortion's glamourous huh? Think again. A few weeks old baby isn't just a mass of tissue. It is a living, breathing human being just like you and me. It CAN feel the pain. A 10 week old baby already has perfectly formed hands and feet just the size of our fingertips.
Hmmm...if you read the text on the picture and is wondering how can saline solution burn coz that's the very thing you use to wash your contact lenses. I did a little check-up on that coz I was just as puzzled too. Well, according to a website, they said that doctors insert an instrument to suck out some of the amniotic fluid that surrounds the baby. To replace that, saline solution is injected. The saline solution enters the baby's lungs and burns the baby. I'm guessing that the saline solution they use is highly concentrated unlike the one that we use to wash our contact lenses. And coz of the high salt content in the solution, it burns.
I remember watching a video tape on abortion for one of our RE lessons in secondary school. How the aborted baby tried to squirm away from the very instrument or rather murder weapon the doctor inserted. How the baby let out a silent scream. It's cruelty...it's MURDER!
So for all those mummies who chose not to abort their little angels, cheers to you. God bless ya.
April 02, 2004 @ 2.22pm
ORDS is killing me, so is everything else
[edited at 11.47pm]Finally handed in the ORDS project. You should have seen the mad rush in the lab. People "flying" around the room to get their codes printed. People getting frustrated at the server. Server overload. Too many people using at the same time. All rushing the project. Plus the year 1 FNDB students having their lab test.
At first Mrs Ho was pretty serious about us not doing our project in the first hour of our lab. She said if she came around and catch us doing it, she would cut marks. Ha! But coz of the server overload, some of us couldn't use Oracle. So in the end, she found it hard to conduct the lab session and let us do our project.
Thank God. That gave me extra time to finalise our ERD. Spent the last half an hour testing out my codes. By then, Oracle was working fine. Needed to spool the file and print out the results. Couldn't figure out what's wrong. So too bad, gotta hand in my codes which has errors. But like I said, it's like the first time I do coding without getting help or referring to friend's work. Got Dennis and Louis to help out by going to the labs on the 5th level to print out our ERD. The stupid printer in the 2nd level lab refuses to print A3 sized documents.
They took a long time. Started to panic a little when 5 minutes to submission time they were not down yet. Turns out they couldn't get it printed coz Microsoft Visio kept hanging on them. Level 5 and 6 labs. Lab tech came in to holler at us to save our work and get out. Mrs Ho finally said that those who couldn't hand it in to her then could put it in her pigeon hole.
Whew. We rushed up to the 7th level labs. Wow wee...I lack exercise. Ran up by the stairs from 2nd to 7th level. Felt like my legs were going to give way. Heart pounding. Out of breath. Got the ERD printed. Dave suggested running down to get it bound.
So that's the end of the ORDS project. Still got more projects to complete.
CMSK2 class was interesting today. Everyone got to practise their telephone skills. How to handle requests and situations. It was hilarious hearing all the funny comments. Especially Teck Hua's. He and Louis got the senario where Teck Hua's a nurse of a clinic and Louis calls in to say that his daughter is bleeding and needs medical attention.
Teck Hua: "Hello. This is Nurse Chew of Chew Family Clinic. How may I help you?"
That statement alone left us in fits of laughter. More to come...
Louis: My daughter's ear is bleeding.
...blah blah blah...
Teck Hua: "I'm sorry I can't leave the clinic as today is a busy day and I'm the only nurse around. Doctor Chew is busy attending to the patients right now."
Family clinic indeed. Doctor and nurse both have the surname "Chew". Haha...
Louis: *exasperated* My daughter is bleeding and she is going to die!
*sayless* Now you know why both of them are the jokers of the class.
Yesterday, I had an encounter with a "perverted" roach. Stepped into the shower area to bathe. The bathroom in my parents' room has 2 areas. One is the shower area, the other is the toilet bowl and washbasin area. A sliding door splits the 2 areas. On the shower... Turned and to my horror, saw an adult roach in the shower area. Less than a metre away, near the now closed sliding door. Didn't dare move, let alone slide open the door to let myself out. Afraid that if I did, the roach will start running. And excuse me, the shower area is only that small. Don't want it to crawl on me. Screamed for Dad.
Luckily the roach didn't move when Mum slid the door open to "rescue" me. Die you perverted roach...die I say. Sounds very much like Jo's encounter with the perverted lizard. Hehe...
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I'm about to give up. Just do the minimum...the bare minimum. At least I'll get a few marks rather than nothing. At least I tried, without getting help or referring to a friend's work. Oh my...I'm saying all this to make myself feel better when the actual fact is I suck at java or database.
Got a lot more to blog about but I'll do that later.
April 01, 2004 @ 10.46am
jump
[edited at 2.33am]Too lazy to start a new entry. Anyway, notes done for HR MGT project. Very brief. Shall email Rajes more later. Now's just for peer teaching.
Did a little of the procedure for ORDS. I can't test it at home. I hope it's ok...not too major errors. Hmmm...I do think better when I get some sleep. Speaking of which, I need to get some now coz I start early and end late tomorrow...technically speaking, today.
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Tired and frustrated. I don't know how to tackle the procedure for ORDS. I only know it's supposed to insert the data into the tables. But there is validation to be done which is the headache part. Make me more blurz only. Was in school till 5pm. After that, couldn't think anymore. Felt really tired. So went home to sleep.
Still have to do HR MGT project. Tomorrow's my last chance at peer teaching. Or else I can kiss my peer evaluation marks goodbye.
ORDS individual marks is 50% lehz...how?!
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Shit. Either the fishballs or the siew mai has too much MSG. My body, jaw and arms are aching. Damn uncomfortable. Yes...my body reacts when there's too much MSG in the food. MSG is baddddddd...that's why you can't find that ingredient in our house.
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Too tired to blog yesterday.
Went for IN3D lab. Thank God I did. Mr Shaw helped me model the snail. Wow wee...a pro is a pro. Within like 15 minutes to half an hour, he modelled a snail. Although he found the shell a little tough, the snail still looked like a snail. When he was modelling the head of the snail, he commented "I didn't know a snail could look that scary". I'm truly amazed. *sayless*
Went home thinking that since they didn't say there was project meeting, maybe some are doing the first part of the project. Slept for like half an hour when suddenly Dennis called to ask where I am. Project meeting. No choice. Rushed back to school. Did the project till lab closed.
Today, rushing the ORDS project. Tomorrow's the submission date. More errors surfacing. Mostly coz of duplicate data. But right now our main concern is heck the errors, as long as the tables and be created and nothing goes wrong, that's it.
No news from the NVidia guy. I think he's puzzled over my stupid computer's windows error. I'm convinced now that it's my computer which is cranky. Shit. Which means I have to finish my STMD project in school coz Apache server can't be installed in my computer. Sis's computer...no way...it's running out of space coz of her rubbish. Dad's laptop...don't even think about it...he doesn't even know his password to log in. -_-|||
Alleluia...
Tiao lou, tiao lou, Elisia yao tiao lou.
